i am back in the parents house. not really sure how i am feeling about it so far. not very good at the moment. hopefully i won't be here for very long.

plans for tuesday=enrolling at ivy tech.

new job=no money=stress=me going crazy=me not sleeping=me moving back home.
at least i might be able to take some classes now. it's definately not what i want to do. but. i. am. b.r.o.k.e.

you know, some things are so petty. like when you were feeling like your life was being destroyed, and someone lends a sympathetic ear... constrew it however you want. i do have friends. you already think whatever you do about me. so whatever. this is not where i want to talk about this.

so it's been a little over a week now. and so far i like it. other than being pretty lonely and not doing anything but working.i have the tiniest room ever. but i have cable, so i guess it evens out. i miss ari a lot. i think about him all the time. but, all in all, i think i am adjusting...

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i've been thinking so much over the past few days. i am so sad. all these things i am feelng are so hard to put into words. and i know i am not dealing with everything the way i should. i don't know. everything is such a mess to me.

i'm feeling today like nothing i have ever said or done has meant anything to anyone. like the most important part of my life has been a big joke. the only things that have ever mattered to me aren't going to be around for me in a few weeks. i am a mess.

i have a meeting to go to in an hour and 45 minutes. i got a 2 hour nap. ugh. i hope i don't fall asleep during it. and it is really damn cold out. why is it like 77 one day, and 45 the next. indiana weather sucks.

i just heard sigur ros on c.s.i.
that's weird.