I am a preemptive ghost she is a preemptive angel together we foreshadow the sky and begin to fall.

[eyeofbassman]

I took a day off of school today, and i an attempt to be mentally productive will try to make this post not a complete waste of time for the reader, and somewhat interesting and not as cryptic.

Comments

[overlooking]

this was really interesting. i've never been so envious.

[sheisaporno]

hey stranger

i agree with the drinking statement.
&
"I refuse to feel guilty
for not fitting into specific standards set by my environment when it's just the way I am. In my experiences with any of my friends or significants, there have been too many times where I've been repressing my feelings or exaggerating my feelings just to fit into some idealistic social construction: boyfriend, best friend, classmate, stranger, whatever. That seems false, dubious. I dont want it anymore. What I guess I'm saying is, whatever happens happens. Truth and beauty and fulfillment all seem synonymous."

i think it's really hard for people to not try to fit into standards around them. i really respect anyone who doesn't feel guilty for not fitting into these specific standards.

i don't know where i'm going with this but i should catch up with my consciousness too.

[eyeofbassman]

that was kind of a specific statement generalized, what you put in quotes. It is really hard to not try to fit in, it's a condition of human evolution and survival in some ways, I just see it as a goal to aspire to and not necessarily a reality. Having control of the way you fit in: that is, being critical and thoughtful about it, is something I'm going to try to do, as not merely to settle for whatever everyone else is doing. This post kinda makes me sound like a wanna be deep shmuck or pretentious so i'm glad you read it or part of it.

wannabe?

[adamplus]

mr. rico,
there is no wannabe, there is no real
there is what there is
no more, no less

[sheisaporno]

i get it. oh in boston the indie kids love the word pretentious. haha. did you like it there?

[likethemapples]

I flipped out as I first started reading this, because not only did you abandon me in psych. today, but ms. healy went on like a ten minute speech about how there are just those moments in life when you see the trees in fall or the leaves on the ground and you wish you could stay awhile and think about it. Guess you two were on the same wavelength, and judging by the time you posted, it's even eerier.

[playitforward]

I'm glad you've develop these philosophies and realization towards things in your life, something as your own truth.

Have you look into buddhism? Perhaps just be curious of its teaching; it's mostly philosophies more than religion.
(This is not an attempt to 'convert' you or anything of the like.)

[eyeofbassman]

I'd be interested; I wouldnt know where to start. Perhaps you could point me?

[peeloff_mask]

anything that we are cognitively aware of, has no real meaning and in a cognitive context offer no real fulfillment. dan i disagree with that. its a complete contradiction of everything youve cognitively realised in this entry.

"Dissatisfaction is almost a type of apathy, it only demonstrates a lack of control over ones consciousness. One must control or have some acceptance of their consciousness to access their subconscious."
dan look how many times you have control mentioned in that in relation to satisfaction. from the first setance are you implying that if yuou do havef control u will be satisfied? and with the second sentence, why do you need control to access your subconscious? isnt the appeal of lush, that it takes away your inhibitions and encourages your access? you mention control more than you mention acceptance

this is a stupid comment for the intra-net only.

[eyeofbassman]

I think this entry was more of a knowledge accumulation for application, which is education and a little different. I just mean that it's dangerous and probably destructive to access your subconscious to any significant extent if you dont understand or accept your consciousness. that's what I mean by control. But yeah, it's hard to describe via this keyboard

[peeloff_mask]

i know what you were digging at, but even though this was mostly to sink it in, you should still go back and fix it if its not precise. cause your smarter than that to make careless mistakes. via this keybord my clit, your supposed to be a WRITER dan

and also from friday you said something about writing being another censor, but i dont remember if you said that in 5th or at night