I didnt eat all day so I could pig out at my grandmas. i didnt need to though because yesterday i ate a gigantic steak burrito that more than sufficed for most of today. I didnt really pig out but had a few tamales and I haven't had a tamale in a couple years so you can bet they were delicious. Tomorrow is christmas I think i may be getting a ( Read more... )

today i got all sick after eating some soup, ironically. But then i slept and felt better. Jeremy came over and we jammed for a while, it was old school fun. Suddenly i'm getitng better at bass again. We're gonna play a show in april with the number one band in israel down in Urbana. That will be interesting. Today seemed kind of wasteful but I was ( Read more... )

I am not a robot. nor would i be having existed in 2035. that is valuable insight. I am sorry forr staying home tonight and avoiding the questions. and i still have to write my grandma an email explaining myself. and get into college. ahoy winter break do your best for me.

ps im a sucker

ate too much. sat too still. slept in excess. did read, good. writing seems starch. need to implode for sustenance.

my least favorite expression is condecenscion.when ideals and plausibilities are immediate opposites it kind of sucks.

yours is the first face that i saw
i think i was blind before i met you

last night became excess. I cannot really victimize myself anymore.

Earlier today i got immaculately depressed and i understand why but do not know what to do with it. However, I proceeded into a very fun night (sobriety maintained) of lazer tag and general hanging out. I'm happy with my overall quality of life right now, and my relationships in general with my friends, save a few. Graduating is going to be weird. ( Read more... )

music is abstract. Pitches have no imaginative representation. the musician not only creates, as in visual or written, but also responds to what he/she is creating while in the process so it's meaning is totally spontaneous to the moment. It's like the most immediate form of new criticism, it's all coming from the music. It's so distincitve from ( Read more... )

extreme lack of sleep lately. making decisions is really hard.

It's true that I've grown up a lot just since the summer.

i'm starting music writing again it's all coming back to my head somebody freak out with me

(besides jazz)

I may have an intense fear of being too obvious! a symptom of my condition