today, since april...ive been saying that i will quit cigarettes...now the time has come...when this pack is done...im done...with cigs for the rest of my life...can i do it? i hope so.

soooo today i was an asshole and skipped out on dawns dads block party...i totally had every intention of going but i just got a little too drunk last night at jethros...hacksaw brings a gallon of captain morgans, which is my favorite, and i guess its inevitable that obscene drunkeness will ensue. when i woke up i really couldnt even lift my head ( Read more... )

friends are supposed to be the ones you can trust...haha totally wrong. a select few friends are the ones you can really trust. now granted...im a fuck up and i say shit that im not supposed to...but in the company of people i would think can keep a secret. noooooooo. like at my most vulnerable times you would think people empathize. but no, a ( Read more... )

ill probably rip out all my fucking hair trying to figure out where i went wrong.

yeah so i just used my dad's just for men mustache dye on my hair...i feel like a man now...but i seriously think im going to use it from now on...at least when i want to streak darkly because it works very well and you only have to leave it in for like 5 minutes...well i left it on for 10 cause i wanted it extra dark...but i have no patience so ( Read more... )

im now understanding why i liked keeping my lives separate. the slightest bit of specialness i thought i had is fading. im not "cool" anymore...just a use-e. but i dont even think i need to be used anymore.

so im watching the olympic opening ceremony...its four hours long...im sure im not watching all of it...but can i say...there are some beautifulllll olympiads..mmm mmm. and i think i have a crush on that 19 year old swimmer from the US ( Read more... )

well you know what...fuck rewinding back time...just try it again the next night...and try i did and successful i was. yay for me! yay for tonight! i waited very long for it to happen again but i guess patience pays off. :::::pats self on the back:::::

ps...it was wellllll worth the wait

i wish i could rewind and go back to 2am and make a different decision. this time i would have stayed and been a happy girl...a happy happy girl...its been a while since ive been a happy girl. ugh im so mad at myself...what a silly, stupid decision.

i complained of mosquito bites and just so everyone knows it wasnt pointless complaining, i counted them...i have 42 mosquito bites...23 of them being on my left leg alone! soooo i hear im gonna die pretty soon from a mosquito related illness such as malaria or encephilitis...goodbye all.