ive been sabotaging myself

[eyesintheskys]

all right, ive figured this out. Ive said some things here that i knew would piss some people off. I knew that before I said them. Why did i say them? i think that its simply this. I dont feel like i have the effort to keep the old friendships going. I just dont have it in me to put all this effort into people, when it feels like theyre not trying

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[lovelybello]

What do you mean unbalanced friendship? Its true I havent been maiking the effort that much with you because of how your attitude was coming across to me...but I havent seen much effort on your part to stay friends with me. I cant speak for keesha but I believe its the same way...You changed when you went to college. Great time at the ten year reunion? Does that mean you didnt believe we wouldnt talk or stay good friends? We would just see each other next at the ten year reunion?

I know I can make an effort to keep friends going as does keesha...we both proved that by us staying close and best friends...but your right it is a two way thing...

I dont know what to say anymore...keesha will most likely read this tonight or tomorrow but I think we need her input...

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[eyesintheskys]

I call you to see how its going. I im you to see whats up. I try to make plans with you. but you havent done any of that(granted you have imed me first some too).
what i meant by the 10 year reunion was that we could be friends for the next 10 years, not "bye ill see you in 10 years".
Of course you and keesha are still close, but you must admit its a bit more conveinient for you. you can go see her on a regluar basis. I just cant and I cant control it.

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[lovelybello]

When have you ever tried to make plans? Yes you have said that we need to do something soon every once in a while but thats it...I have said the same thing and your either doing this, going to a party or going to rehersal...Your busy..I get that

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[xunwanted1]

School + Work = Hardly anytime.. and what time I have I'm with Joey or Amanda.

I'll be nice and leave it at that.