I beat Crisis Core last night.
First off, I need to send my brother a thank-you message. He did buy me the game (which I somehow knew nothing about, huh) for Christmas, and I plan on telling him how much it really opened up the VII world for me. (We both pretty much had the same reservations about VII, so I'm going to tell him how awesome it was!)
Okay, ending time...
Um, second off. I uh. I haven't played a game and beat it that's brand new in a long time. So generally, I'm not surprised. While this wasn't exactly a surprise (as anyone who played VII knows Zack's fate isn't good) it was still a...shock. I um...cried. for a long time. Generally, I take my glasses off when I cry, but I wouldn't have been able to see the screen, so I said "fuck it!" and just sobbed like a little girl, screaming at my PSP screen.
To be honest, I'm surprised nobody came in my room like "are you okay!?" "are you being attacked!?" (then again, it was pretty late at night so maybe nobody heard, rofl) because I was screaming at the scream "no! stop! please don't hurt him! please!" and then "no, please! stay with me, Zack!" I don't know why, because I knew what was happening was happening but goddammit. I was so pissed at the Soldiers for not listening to me cry out in agony to leave him be, the jerks.
So, anytime I actually think about Zack's condition at the end of the game (seriously, ugh) my face contorts, and I get all weep-y feeling. For Zack and Cloud. Cloud's part was so sad...when he pulled up and his face was in Zack's blood...oh god, I just...and the sword...and Aerith! Aerith, the rain in her church...she knew. God, I died.
Also, the battle...his DMV was breaking, and all he could focus on was Aerith...ohgod.
So, I blubbered through the whole credits, too. Which were nicely done, from what I could see through my blurred tears. I did like the "To be continued in FFVII..." bit at the end, because it's true! XD
So, I'd add that to one of the saddest moments, ever, in gaming history. That is tops as far as the worst death I've ever seen. Aerith's sad little theme song keeps playing in my head, because I keep thinking about how they're both...bah. Did Zack's death have to be so...awful?
"Hey, we're friends right?"
"Would you say...I became a hero?"
ME: YOU ARE SUCH A HERO /sobsob
Besides the whole Zack bit, the whole Cloud bit had me sad, too. Poor Cloud. That really gave me an insight into why his character was so messed up at the start of VII. I feel like I see the whole story a bit clearer now.
Is it also sort of awful to say in a way, I'm glad that Aerith dies in VII? I mean, I'm not *glad* per-say, as they both die in awful ways (Zack got shot up and Aerith got stabbed through the stomach - I mean, ow!) but I'm glad that they're in the lifestream together.
I just. When Angeal reached his hand out and Zack...he...he was ready to go to the lifestream and I just, I just said "please! please don't go!"
Gah. My reactions would have probably made an interesting video, in itself. >>
I played the game a lot at night, so my memory of certain events is...hazy. Especially since I usually took some Xanax before hand, to help me sleep, most of the time. So, a second playthrough y/y for sure, although I'll do a lot more side missions this time, instead of being antsy to advance the story!
Zack; loved him. loved him. loved him. I wasn't sure what to think when I started the game, but his sunny persona and positive thinking are so...catching. I can see why Aerith would be enthralled by him. He was too...pure for Soldier. I just love Zack. Also, I love the VA they got for him. Sound familiar? Pretty sure he did Gippal in FFX-2, who was also a sunny-attitude type of character, heh. Anyways. Stupid Square, making me adore you, Zack.
I think I'm going to do a Zack manifesto, of sorts. I feel the need to do something. I can't let it end, there. My heart is tugging at me to do something.
/looks up caps for picspam-ey thing
/tries not to cry
I haven't decided what today will be dedicated to - FFVIII or FF:CC. I want to replay CC, but I'm also still...very depressed about it. I want to get off Disc 1 of VIII, so I thought tonight would be a good way to play a bunch, as I did last Saturday. Then again, CC and its side missions and Zack in general are calling to me.
I'm not sure. All I know is that I'd be pretty traumatized if I were Cloud, too.
Damn. (I'm also not gonna lie, I wish thedrowned had been there with me, or something. I needed a shoulder to cry on, seriously. I was so depressed that I went to bed right after I beat it.) >>