if she was wearing heals, she could have stepped on my chest, and it would have felt better. the closure i got was welcome, but i never expected to get it in this form... ive never been as disgusted by someones selfish actions, and the selfish way she cries as i played that song ( Read more... )

if ive ever seen the color red before
it was in your room
if ive seen shades of white turn to gray
its in the things you've said

in the relfection
it would have been better to be bitter
but the world is getting colder
and id probably shatter with the impact
of your smile

no matter what excuses i make... i still cant get over the fact that i love you.
no matter what defenses i put up... you see threw them, and penetrate with honesty.

i can't decide if i was happier denying feelings, or if im happier right now, feeling them.

its big descion time in lisbon ct. ive decided to wait until after cancun to make it tho. i definately need time to think about this ( Read more... )

im sitting still... after sleeping still for hours, i come to work and sit still for 8 more hours. oh i dont mind. oh no ( Read more... )

when i talk to you next, i need to remind myself to tell you how you helped me remember how to feel.

ive just realized how long it has been since i've been this bothered by something. More than 3 years. And the feeling is so shocking. My stablity is way off, and I feel like I'm loosing my mind. I guess its a good thing tho. I'm being reminded of emotion. Both ends of it now.

it hasnt been so long, but it feels like the seconds are slowing
i can feel you here, everywhere like the air, and your escaping
its yours to choose but its growing on me to change it
its like forever, in use, and the hesitation is killing me

its been 3 days of missing you. 3 days of controlling emotions to the point of sterility. still occasionally i find myself choking. it feels like im waiting, sticking around while you come around. we were such a quick love. i remember telling you about the rain, and how when it starts with a pour, it ends quickly.
i wish youd prove me wrong.