under the glare of suicide
So it was homecoming night. Mum and I were at third street doing my hair. I was wearing this adorable black and pink polkadotted dress and these elaborate shoes that spindled up to my knees. Mum and I were talking about Austalian people wearing shoes with sandals.
When my hair was finished, we heard a beep from outside. Then Matt came inside, wearing a cute tux. I ran to him and gave him a kiss and he asked me if I was ready to go.
We left in Trish's car. Apparently, she sold it to him and got a new Jetta. So on the way we listened to a CD called "Silly Songs" that had a bunch of Bright Eyes and Moulin Rouge and Motion City on it. We were screaming Elephant Love Medley to each other and it was so hardcore.
We got to homecoming late because we spent too much time driving around singing. The first person I saw was Trish and she looked so pretty! She was with Nate and he gave me a hug before she did and said "You look beautiful kiddo." I was taken aback. Then Trish was saying "Everyone has been asked if you were even coming. I'm so glad you're here!"
Then I found Danielle, who was with Jack. She was wearing this really short dark green dress that made her boobs look huge. I went over to them and Danielle threw herself on me and made me fall over. When I got back up, Jack whispered to me "She's been like this all night. I think she's drunk or something."
Then the dream skipped. I was talking to Caleb and we were drinking punch. He was telling me about this Chiodos concert he went to and I was thinking "What the hell Caleb, you don't even like Chiodos" when he said "Oh shit hun- don't turn around."
So naturally when someone says that, you turn right around. And what did I see? Danielle and Matt liplocked hardcore in the corner on a bench. I was so mad I squeezed my cup of punch until it smashed and spilled all over the floor. I started walking away really fast and I heard Caleb saying "Come back! I told you not to turn around!!"
I slipped behind the gates they put up so you can't get to the rest of the school and went straight to the back room of the library. I started crying and said "I don't believe it!"
A voice then said "Don't believe what?" from behind the counter. I spazzed and screamed. Then Mark appeared from a chair behind the counter and laughed and was like "Sorry hun didn't mean to scare you."
"I didn't think anyone else would be in here," I said weakly, quickly wiping my eyes. "Yeah, I thought so too," he replied and we laughed.
"So. What don't you believe?" he asked calmly. "My fucking date is making out with my best friend." I replied.
He smiled and said "Oh? Yours too?"
I gave him a quizical look and he just sighed and was like "Yeah. Heather ditched me as soon as we got here for her other friends and then I caught her a little too close to Richard. I always suspected something between them, but you know... Never really dawned on me until I saw them at it."
"Awww Marky I'm sorry," I said and gave him a huge hug. "I guess we're both dateless freaks now."
And then suddlenly we just crying together, holding on to each other and letting the tears fall. Then out of nowhere he kissed me. I stepped back and looked at him. "Mark, I don't-"
He cut me off with a growling "Shut up" and pulled me close again. I was so turned on by his agressiveness that I threw my lips on his and we made out together for a long while.
When we parted, we looked at each other and knew that there was passion. We just knew. Then I giggled and said "I guess we're not dateless freaks anymore."
"Nah," he replied, "We're still freaks. Just not dateless ones."
Then we went back to the gym holding hands and everyone stared at us and then burst into applause. My heart was screaming with joy.
Then a slowsong came on and we just looked at each other and ran out to the dancefloor. While we were dancing, someone tapped Mark. It was Heather. She looked pissed. "I always knew there was something between you and her!" she screamed.
"Actually there wasn't," Mark replied, "until now. And besides you have Rich so fuck off."
Then she started crying and was like "He really doesn't want me. I realized the only for me is you. Can't you understand that?"
He just said "Nope, I can't. Because you're not the only one for me. Lesley is. So run back to your little friends and have them console you. I'm done."
She just looked at him and then walked away. Mark turned back to me and we just started dancing again.
"Heather's so pretty," I said. "Why would you pick me over her?"
He stopped dancing and looked me straight in the eye. "Because. Number one, you're definitely prettier than her. And because even when you're crying you look as beautiful as before. And well... you're such a good kisser."
Then we kissed again and I woke up.
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