Well things have been a lil better. I am still stressed as all get out, but I am dealing with it a lot better than I was. Just somehow I can pull it off to pass my test tommarow. I really need to, I really hope I can. I am going to do my best. Talked to Cherokee today, and felt nice. I do miss her and think about her a lot still...I was in the ( Read more... )

I can't take it anymore...I can't figure out why I feel this way, though there are a lot of things to make me. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME??? WHY DOES EVERYTHING GO BAD??? WHY CAN'T I DO SOMETHING RIGHT??? !!!!!!!!!!!! Is there an end to this??? OMG I HATE THIS!!!!

I think the harder I try and want, the worse it gets. I mean...if its not one thing its another. Is there ANYTHING that will work out right??? Is there, is there for real? Why me, why does it always fall on me? Just can't take it anymore....

Ok, lets try this again. This has not worked for a while...Ne'ways, too much crap is going on. I wish that it would all just chill out! I am behind in class, I failed 2 test by the way. We are swamped with work at work...and we are prabable going to come in this weekend. I am really far behind on sleep...Have not been to the gym or anything. My ( Read more... )

I am like so far behind studying for my test, its not even funny! I have to take a break, so I thought I would type in this. I want to go to bed right now so bad, but I can't. I want to do good, but its going to be good if I pass right now. I thought today at work we might not have much going on and I would be able to finish up doing some things ( Read more... )

Last night, I went out to the lake to look at it, and noticed that it was fozen over. I threw some rocks at it and they bounced across. So then I walked across the freaken' pond! Well, just the edge, but still! How cool is that? Work today was stressful. We worked all night on one jet. And the bad thing is that the part we put on, came off another ( Read more... )

Gah, I am sooo tired of this freaken' homework. Now I remeber why I never did that good in school. I tried to go to the gym earlier, and just couldn't do anything! Anyhow, this weekend has gone by really fast. I spent the weekend with Heather, a gurl I know from Kansas. That was fun, all we did was eat and watch movies...lol! But it was nice to get ( Read more... )

It is soooo cold here! It is supposed to get down to 4 degrees in the morning...whoa THAT'S COLD! We had to walk the flighline at work today, and it was like 20 something degress with about 20 mph wind. We had to walk between to jets that was about to launch and it was sooo loud. I forgot my ear plus.(figures) Anyways, we got history class tommarow ( Read more... )

Well I finally got to get into some classes today. I am going to be taking Microcomputer Applications, and a History. They said that they would transfer to Macouthur, so that will make things a lil easier. It cost me for a used book and a new one, $150!!! What's the deal, are we like making commision off the books??? Common now...I wasn't too happy ( Read more... )

It is so weird being back up here and at work. Doesn't even feel like I have been home. And you think being gone for 2 weeks, people might miss you...YEAH RIGHT, NOT HERE! Some people I don't even think they knew I was gone! Oh well, I'm not worried about them, they can just stay here and I leave! I have been running back and forth trying to get ( Read more... )