the complete works of joseph michael gandara
the complete works of joseph michael gandara
these works were composed between the years 1998 and 2002. they are in no particular order i jsut grabbed what i could find.
got knocked on my ass
no arms to help me up
just jelly grounds
and oiled feet
i hear your lush words
but they mean nothing to me
cus they carry no peace with them
i sit alone in my solitude
with thoughts of my tattered past
a desolate and lonesome life appears to be my fate
the music no longer eases my mind
now i must tolerate the silence
and i hope for better tomorrows
but tomorrow never seems to come
knocked on my ass
cant get up to bring the new day
cant get up to move to start a new
cant get up to live this life
no longer a man
no longer a person
just dark and cold inside
searching for a light that brings growth
brings warmth to the blood that runs through these veins
forever searching.... searching for what was lost...
-excel
wont somebody love me
take me away from this pain
pain in my soul, pain at my side
pull this torn from my paw
kill this bee by my head
open my heart to something of peace
go away go away
leave me be
i fucking hate you and you're the last to know
so blind, cant see what in front of you
cant see what going to become
go back, i dont care anymore, leave me be
i wont leave cus you'll go back
im going through pain so you wont have to
seems piontless to most but i do it cus i care
i love you but not the same
its not cheating its just moving on, away from you
i hate you if thats what it takes, I HATE YOU!
I HATE YOU and youre the last to know
leave me alone, leave me be
let me grow apart from you
-excel
i promised you my heart
but all i promised was a lie
my heart belongs to no one
no one being you
-excel
who am i?
i am nobody
just someone you pass once and agian
never knew my thoughts or my dreams
i am just that guy
bound to you with words never spoken
i am a man, but still a nobody
-excel
are you out there?, im reaching for you
do you hear me?, im screaming your name
do you know the way i feel?, im nothing with out you
do you feel the same?, im whishing you did
can we be?, i want it so
why cant be?, im going to fight for it
your not even there are you?, im lost in your mind
do you even know that im here?, im waiting for you
do you hear me?, im screaming your name
are you out there?, im reaching for you
-excel
my heart once loved you so much
to the piont where my heart ached for you
your love brought me nothing but pain
you left but the pain never thought to do so
it was still there but not of love, now its hate
pain is no longer welcome
cold steel never felt so gratiying
ripping flesh, bloody hands
i remove my heart, this pain i dont want anymore
never to love agian be my reward
love is a tradgity and a punishment
heartless creature, cold as the winter night
am i now the luckiest man alive?
who is to judge the heartless
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look into my eyes and hear my voice
approaching with wicked intent and a malicious manner
whispers in your ear "the last one to feel your scorn"
with my passionless blade, i seek redemption
slash my way through your cruel chest
reach for the heart; sinful, immoral and villainous
delightful smirk runs cross my face
i do this with gratification
dislodge this blackend evil from its unsound body
raise it to your false eyes
just to show you what wickedness lay inside
i do this so you can no longer hurt anyone
my pain has become pleasure
bloody hands, take a taste
so fresh like the summers light
i am to judge the heartless
-excel
emotions come from my mind
but the pain is always aimed at my heart
time may pass and wounds will heal
but scars last forever
once betrayed and always scorned
you talk to me, never to know my true feelings
i am but a shadow on a wall
something not remembered, easily forgotten
so much i want you to say that you love me
i'll make you so proud
dont you see that im right here
here waiting , waiting for you
i'll make you happy baby just wait and see
the greatest gift you could ever give
just give yourself to me
i can still remember your smile and your stolen glances
a secrete we share
we forget the past.
-excel
as i take these items from off my wall never to put up agian.
its like im taking down my childhood, never to have agian.
a childhood lost, a chilhood forgoten,
a childhood i wish not to remember but only these things i take down.
walls blank, i feel homeless, was this ever home?
misshapen ideals, mistaken identity.
soon i will walk down the road of loneliness into what is so familiar to me.
from where or whom do these felling emerge? blank are the hollow halls of my mind.
cetain tragedy, curtan call, is this my end of me.
i only wish i could see this futre of mine -scared-
time to be in the present, feel the beats as not to think
drum and bass hits- loops- synical sounds, and the m.c's rhymes keep my mind clear
as not think -control-
turn off the lights and close the door
never tell me goodbye because we never met
-excel
my thoughts consist of nothing
as my world falls apart
all i can do is smile now
three days since we last spoke
three days til the end
and in the end i ask no regrets
the only regret is that we ever happened
so shed no tears over me
for i am not worth your tears
my mind's blank with nothing
cus thats all i have now
three days since we spoke
three days til the end
and in these next three days
my world will fall apart
cus u will no longer be in it
please dont cry love, my love
it is for the best
for i shall disappear
so you may love again
please, now sleep in peace
and never shed another tear
and remember none for me
my world is no more and i am no more with out you
in three days my world falls apart
my world is ending and im not smiling anymore
-excel
my baby came back to me today, im so happy she did i love her so much. i love the feel of her body. the way she sounds when i give it to her a little. the way i feel when i feel her touch to my skin. i love it when we go for a ride and i can jus turn off the radio and listen to her for hours. i love it when after a long days work she'll be outside jus waitting for me. i love the way she smells, the way she sounds, the way she move; oh god can she move, ...... i love my car so much - excel
make me the man you want me to be
cus i cant be a man with out you
life seems like a dout when im with out....
you always in my heart
forever in my soul bound by action and not.......
words never to be spoken agian
for then only bring pain
never want to hurt my true love.
her words echo in my mind
no one can ever know
today brings a new life of truths
love in my heart
rage surges through my soul
i promie, i promise
your words will forever echo through my mind
all we need is time to get through this
all we need is time to overcome
'why me? why me?', its not your fault
sick in the head, he layed you to bed
no reason to feel at fault
only feel happy to be away from the sadness
nothing but happiness to come in time
times to replace those that have not been
those word that came from your mouth, like a spear to my heart
i cry for your pain and your missfortune
all in the past, nevermore
things will be different, i promise
no one will ever know
i promise, i promise
no one shall ever know
-excel
these works were composed between the years 1998 and 2002. they are in no particular order i jsut grabbed what i could find.
got knocked on my ass
no arms to help me up
just jelly grounds
and oiled feet
i hear your lush words
but they mean nothing to me
cus they carry no peace with them
i sit alone in my solitude
with thoughts of my tattered past
a desolate and lonesome life appears to be my fate
the music no longer eases my mind
now i must tolerate the silence
and i hope for better tomorrows
but tomorrow never seems to come
knocked on my ass
cant get up to bring the new day
cant get up to move to start a new
cant get up to live this life
no longer a man
no longer a person
just dark and cold inside
searching for a light that brings growth
brings warmth to the blood that runs through these veins
forever searching.... searching for what was lost...
-excel
wont somebody love me
take me away from this pain
pain in my soul, pain at my side
pull this torn from my paw
kill this bee by my head
open my heart to something of peace
go away go away
leave me be
i fucking hate you and you're the last to know
so blind, cant see what in front of you
cant see what going to become
go back, i dont care anymore, leave me be
i wont leave cus you'll go back
im going through pain so you wont have to
seems piontless to most but i do it cus i care
i love you but not the same
its not cheating its just moving on, away from you
i hate you if thats what it takes, I HATE YOU!
I HATE YOU and youre the last to know
leave me alone, leave me be
let me grow apart from you
-excel
i promised you my heart
but all i promised was a lie
my heart belongs to no one
no one being you
-excel
who am i?
i am nobody
just someone you pass once and agian
never knew my thoughts or my dreams
i am just that guy
bound to you with words never spoken
i am a man, but still a nobody
-excel
are you out there?, im reaching for you
do you hear me?, im screaming your name
do you know the way i feel?, im nothing with out you
do you feel the same?, im whishing you did
can we be?, i want it so
why cant be?, im going to fight for it
your not even there are you?, im lost in your mind
do you even know that im here?, im waiting for you
do you hear me?, im screaming your name
are you out there?, im reaching for you
-excel
my heart once loved you so much
to the piont where my heart ached for you
your love brought me nothing but pain
you left but the pain never thought to do so
it was still there but not of love, now its hate
pain is no longer welcome
cold steel never felt so gratiying
ripping flesh, bloody hands
i remove my heart, this pain i dont want anymore
never to love agian be my reward
love is a tradgity and a punishment
heartless creature, cold as the winter night
am i now the luckiest man alive?
who is to judge the heartless
::::::::::::::::::::::::::::reverse::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::
look into my eyes and hear my voice
approaching with wicked intent and a malicious manner
whispers in your ear "the last one to feel your scorn"
with my passionless blade, i seek redemption
slash my way through your cruel chest
reach for the heart; sinful, immoral and villainous
delightful smirk runs cross my face
i do this with gratification
dislodge this blackend evil from its unsound body
raise it to your false eyes
just to show you what wickedness lay inside
i do this so you can no longer hurt anyone
my pain has become pleasure
bloody hands, take a taste
so fresh like the summers light
i am to judge the heartless
-excel
emotions come from my mind
but the pain is always aimed at my heart
time may pass and wounds will heal
but scars last forever
once betrayed and always scorned
you talk to me, never to know my true feelings
i am but a shadow on a wall
something not remembered, easily forgotten
so much i want you to say that you love me
i'll make you so proud
dont you see that im right here
here waiting , waiting for you
i'll make you happy baby just wait and see
the greatest gift you could ever give
just give yourself to me
i can still remember your smile and your stolen glances
a secrete we share
we forget the past.
-excel
as i take these items from off my wall never to put up agian.
its like im taking down my childhood, never to have agian.
a childhood lost, a chilhood forgoten,
a childhood i wish not to remember but only these things i take down.
walls blank, i feel homeless, was this ever home?
misshapen ideals, mistaken identity.
soon i will walk down the road of loneliness into what is so familiar to me.
from where or whom do these felling emerge? blank are the hollow halls of my mind.
cetain tragedy, curtan call, is this my end of me.
i only wish i could see this futre of mine -scared-
time to be in the present, feel the beats as not to think
drum and bass hits- loops- synical sounds, and the m.c's rhymes keep my mind clear
as not think -control-
turn off the lights and close the door
never tell me goodbye because we never met
-excel
my thoughts consist of nothing
as my world falls apart
all i can do is smile now
three days since we last spoke
three days til the end
and in the end i ask no regrets
the only regret is that we ever happened
so shed no tears over me
for i am not worth your tears
my mind's blank with nothing
cus thats all i have now
three days since we spoke
three days til the end
and in these next three days
my world will fall apart
cus u will no longer be in it
please dont cry love, my love
it is for the best
for i shall disappear
so you may love again
please, now sleep in peace
and never shed another tear
and remember none for me
my world is no more and i am no more with out you
in three days my world falls apart
my world is ending and im not smiling anymore
-excel
my baby came back to me today, im so happy she did i love her so much. i love the feel of her body. the way she sounds when i give it to her a little. the way i feel when i feel her touch to my skin. i love it when we go for a ride and i can jus turn off the radio and listen to her for hours. i love it when after a long days work she'll be outside jus waitting for me. i love the way she smells, the way she sounds, the way she move; oh god can she move, ...... i love my car so much - excel
make me the man you want me to be
cus i cant be a man with out you
life seems like a dout when im with out....
you always in my heart
forever in my soul bound by action and not.......
words never to be spoken agian
for then only bring pain
never want to hurt my true love.
her words echo in my mind
no one can ever know
today brings a new life of truths
love in my heart
rage surges through my soul
i promie, i promise
your words will forever echo through my mind
all we need is time to get through this
all we need is time to overcome
'why me? why me?', its not your fault
sick in the head, he layed you to bed
no reason to feel at fault
only feel happy to be away from the sadness
nothing but happiness to come in time
times to replace those that have not been
those word that came from your mouth, like a spear to my heart
i cry for your pain and your missfortune
all in the past, nevermore
things will be different, i promise
no one will ever know
i promise, i promise
no one shall ever know
-excel