There is nothing like remembering you to

put a bullet in the heart of this day...

But honestly I'm still intrigued by how crazy you really are.

I start the 2nd! I have to work my fucking ass off the next year and a half, if I screw up again I'll lose my scholarship. But other than that - Yay Yay Yay!!!

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I've spent all these hours,days - years, tearing down my old self, to build anew. I wore my new name well, but now every consonant and syllable grinds on my heart; always whispering "liar."
I'm starting to wonder if who I was, is still who I really am...
Maybe all this time I've just been pretending.

Her fingers crawl like spiders
hitting notes I never knew existed
bathing the world in this beautiful melody
her song is a gift
she loves us with out reason

Hello livejournal friends

Today is a day for change

I've grown tired of running around in these tight, endless circles, of living half asleep, of being constantly numb in this flesh... of living for tomorrow.

I wonder who I'll become
This life is a strange journey. Oh, so reminiscent of Alice. This world is my Wonderland.

Misfit Love
Back seat of a dirty Volvo
Love had nothing to do with it
Oh, so sadly comforting
Keep it together, keep it together, keep it together
Just long enough to self destruct

I have thirteen dollars in my pocket
I am your oldest sons youngest daughter
create a human being to destroy another
It all comes full circle

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I speak in smoke signals and you answer in code
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I remember everything
I hold on to it all, every word, every smile, every tear
Your heart set the baseline to my every move, every sigh
In musty boxes I save all your words
dried flowers I took from your grave
I miss you every second; every moment.

I'll carry you with me always
Forever
From this life to the next. I'll never stop loving you