we're nothing without you..what you want is what you get♥
If I could take your pain away
I would scream for you
And I’ll bleed for you
So you’ll never feel this way
Again when you’re in my arms
I would scream for you
Mm hmm. I'm in school and I'm updating cause I can, and I need to. I think I've had the week from hell no joke. I quit my job last night. I guess it's better this way. Even my parents agreed, my dad actually told me to quit. The managers are SO fucked up, scratch that the whole staff is fucked up. It was nice making the money but whatever I do NOT need to be treated that way I'll find some other place to work. It just pisses me off how I busted my ass there..and for what? Nothing I guess. I worked 42 hrs in five days..yeah. I'm going through a period of exhaustion right now..it's terrible. I have never been this tired in my life, I feel sick. I need to sleep for like a whole day. I think I'll do that friday night or something. Or I'll go to bed when I get home..yeah that sounds good. I took the day before break off from school or else my mom would have let me stay home today..she's been so supportive about all this work shit..I love her for that. Other things have been off lately. I thought things with me and Eric were over for good, like our friendship the last fight we had. But I'm really glad I was wrong. Even though we fight, we still care about eachother as friends, and no matter what I say when I'm mad I know we still know eachother inside and out. I'm glad we're still friends. I miss Ashley. I get so used to seeing her like so many days in a row we live together on the weekend I think I might kidnap her in her sleep or something, and I won't leave a ransom note or anything..cause no amount of money could add up to my ashree. I miss yelle too. Between me working, her working, and school I haven't been able to see her in a looooong time. It sucks the big one. Things with me and Kyle are working out alot better than I thought they would in the begining. He just doesn't make distance an issue, which is REALLY nice for a change. Yeah, it sucks we can't see eachother everyday but that only makes the time we spend together even more worthwhile. It feels like we've been together so much longer than we really have. It's a different kind of relationship with him, I don't know what it is he makes me feel..but it's good. Really good. He appreciates me, for who I am. He loves me for it. And I've needed that security for..a long time and I have it. I don't think he's going anywhere for a while either and that always helps my little um security issue. People always leave me, I don't get it. I'm not even talking boyfriend wise..even though they do too. I'm talking about friends too. I'm sorry if I ever did anything that hurt any of my friends, but I am only human I make mistakes just like everyone else although that may not justify anything I have done I'm not making an excuse for myself, I'm apologizing. I love my friends I really do and I try my hardest to always be there etc.etc. I just don't understand why I get walked all over. Like I did something to deserve that and as far as I can see, I don't think I deserve the hurt I get. Whatever. What am I gunna do about it? Nothing. As per usual. I'm so exhausted right now, I give a new meaning to the word. Well let's see..5 and a half hours till I get out of this hell hole..WHOO HOO. I shouldn't even complain I actually like my school, I just don't like being in school. We don't even do anything. Right now we're watching XXX..always educational that Vin Diesel..you know how we do. MM hmm. Alright kiddies..I'm peacin'
♥Kyle♥