I'm not gunna pretend like I talk to you all the time cuz that would be a fucking lie. I rarely i/m people anymore. Thats not an excuse though. I'm going through shit too and let me tell ya, I wish god was my best friend to. I just like, don't connect. I do miss you, and I'll always love you because your my kimma. Dude, don't ever hesitate to i/m me or call me. Serisouly. Even if its to bitch, I'll take it. I need to give a good bitch-taking deed because of all the bitching I'm doing to shane. Well, its not bitching. My life is fucked up right now. And boys, o boys. Its like they all hate me. I rarely feel beautiful, I feel as if I'm always getting judged. It fucking sucks. Wow I'm crying again. Tonight can fucking lick my fucking cunt. God I need to stop bitching to you. Serisouly, talk to me about anything, I won't tell a soul. I really do love you girl, don't ever forget that. I don't want you feeling like shit like I do. Yet again, your my kimma and I love you, no joke xoxoxoxoxoxo tayer
tay, you said i love you like 3x.. do you know how freakin' hard you made me cry? i love you too, i love you soo much that it hurts! never do anything dumb to hurt yourself, because that`d put me in more pain, if that`s even possible. OH ITS POSSIBLE! it was so nice talking to you tonight, even if it was only for a short time, even if we were both bitching, even if we were both bawlin like mother fuckers, even if we didn`t know what to say b/c we felt so shitty. i miss the good times so bad. i remember when we always used to smile and laugh and say haha after like every single sentence. what happened to that? i put up a wall of pictures today, it was so nice to see myself with a smile on my face, to see you smiling too.. something so genuine. we look fantastic. but... why does it hurt so much to smile? to cry? to love? to breathe? why does everything hurt so much right now? everytime i look up, i see it. i don`t know if it hurts me more than it makes me feel better, or what. i don`t know anything anymore. what is my damn
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kimma, no matter what happens to you, no matter how much you change, no matter how many fights we get in.. i`ll always be here for you and i want you to know that. your like the older sister i never had, i love you so much and i hate it when your sad and upset, the day i called before you went to prom and you sounded like you were gonna cry i was so upset, i wanted to cry so bad and i was worried about you so much. then seeing you off to prom was so awesome i was like eeeeeek, my kimmas going to PROM. and then i remembered. your gonna be gone next year, i`ll have no "older sister" anymore.. you`ve always helped me through stuff, your so strong about everything i duno how you do it, i wish i could be as strong as you, but i guess i never will be & the last thing is.. i wish i had a bond with God like you do. i never feel like God ever loves me, i know he does, but when i did go to church i never felt God. i duno, even when i got baptised i didn`t feel it or him. and i look up to you for having such a good bond with God. i love you so
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awe chellie, let me go get a box of tissues. 1] you`re making me cry 2] the puddles gave me a cold! i`m sorry for any tears i may have caused you, i don`t want you to be sad because I AM sad, but the feeling`s mutual - i hate when you`re down... it kills me. we have that sisterly bond, definitley
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My god...its been more than a minute since I have talked to you. Im guilty on being late on this one...but Im in LOVE with your dress. Please post pics from the night soon.
I know it gets hard sometimes...and yeah people do come and go...BUT when it comes down to it...YOU are the only one you wake up to. You need to take some time and truly figure out what you want in life. You wont ever be happy no matter who is your friend unless you are happy and content with yourself. I PROMISE you that it will work out. Give yourself time. And dont ever think you are ugly...because I know from the moment your IM popped up on my screen that you are a good hearted person and that alone makes you unquestionably radiant. You are the only one who decides how you will feel or be...take control.
tiffany, my lovely whore. you amaze me. you`re so right, in the end - i`m the one i wake up to every morning... and i need to take control. and now, i know exactly what i want. this past few months has been a time out for me - i`ve grown up and reevaluated myself... and in the end, it boils down to... i don`t like being alone. i don`t like doing things on my own. must i, i have the strength to do so, buuut.. sometimes you have to learn to be independent. you have to learn to not put every duty in your hands and let your friends take care of you. unforetunately, my friends didn`t take care of me- maybe i didn`t let them? maybe they didn`t know they`re supposed to? i dont know. i`m not blaming anyone or anything, it`s no one`s fault. but yea... things are picking up... not because I am taking control.. but because WE are steppin` up...
i think this has taught me, and some of my friends, just how important our friendship is.. we`re not taking it for granted anymore.
laur, its good to know i can count on you... for everything and anything, and i`m glad you know that i`m here for you too. and thank you for expressing just how much you love me showing me that maybe i`m not as bad a friend as i give myself credit for. you have shown me that i am important, maybe not to everyone and thier mom, but to someone. i needed to hear that before like.. i did something dumb like shave my head because lately i`ve been so BLAH I JUST DONT CARE =x excpet i really do care.. i want to be happy again, really happy - more than anything in this world. i`m so lucky to have a friend like you who will be there to see me thru it... to make it happen! you make me smile (= hehe. and for that, i`ll find you lots of hotties at Radford.. starting with my TOUR GUIDE! i love you so much! <33* kimpina
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love always,
carly
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I know it gets hard sometimes...and yeah people do come and go...BUT when it comes down to it...YOU are the only one you wake up to. You need to take some time and truly figure out what you want in life. You wont ever be happy no matter who is your friend unless you are happy and content with yourself. I PROMISE you that it will work out. Give yourself time. And dont ever think you are ugly...because I know from the moment your IM popped up on my screen that you are a good hearted person and that alone makes you unquestionably radiant. You are the only one who decides how you will feel or be...take control.
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i think this has taught me, and some of my friends, just how important our friendship is.. we`re not taking it for granted anymore.
i love you, thank you for making me glow (=
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RICE BOWL INCEST... NEVERRR! ;)
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