i love college and my friends!!!!!!!

cant even call to apologize.. fuck it.

sorta upset.
but im used to it now.
so its easier to get over.
i just want to go to college.
and meet new people!
its time to move on with life.
its been a good summer.
but its time to leave for now.

well i said bye to mary and emily this morning.
i was fine all these days until this morning
and i started tearing up when i was getting ready
but when i actually got to marys and hugged them both
i just broke down.
but i will be seeing them all the time
so thats a plus!

...and the truth comes out.
finally

wow. i dont want to leave.
and i havent cried yet at all.
i just try to keep it in.
but i know its gonna hit me soon.
and its not gonna be good.
i get to that point
were i cant hold it in any longer
and i just break down
and i cant control myself
thats whats prob gonna happen
but im used to it.

my stomach hurts.
i feel like im in a coma.
i cant think or speak.
or else i just want to cry.
im holding it in till the end.
i cant waste time
but all i want to do is sleep.
i cant believe were all going our separate ways
we cant lose eachother.

ahhhhhhhhhhhh...

it was my moms birthday yesterday ( Read more... )

well my gym membership ended today.
but i wasnt going anyways cause im a lazy piece of shit.
but oh well.
im just gonna get fat in college from drinking and eating my feelings ha.
i will be needing to go to the gym there.
lets hope i become obsessed with it.

were in the clear!!
the stress is off my chest.
well not for college.

FUCK YOU..
cause apparently i do nothing right.