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[fab_boy]

There's nothing scarier than power in the hands of the unworthy or the unknowing. I don't know what the hell I'm doing, but apparently it's all up to me. But maybe that's better, because then I can shoulder all the blame if it gets all fucked up. I'm going to be optimistic and say if as opposed to whenIt's been a long time since I've last posted

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[kurt_dahle]

You two know how to bring out the best and the worst in each other. I hope it goes better this time around.

Well, hi.

[fab_boy]

We sure know how to work the extremes...I think the trick is learning how to just be okay. Like...the in-between times.

Hey, Truk. Good to hear from you.

[kurt_dahle]

I'm the kind of guy who really hates in-betweens. Maybe I need to learn what you need to learn.

Good to have you back, Sufur.

[parker]

I may still be the last person you want to here from but I couldn't just not say something. Ignore this if you please

[fab_boy]

I'm surprised to hear from you, but not unhappy about it.

I know what it's like to not feel ready, but unable to do anything other than what your heart tells you to.

I'm glad you understand...it's a scary thing. And it's really hard to explain to the other person without sounding like a total asshole. Or at the very least, really unreliable.

I don't feel like I'm holding onto the past...I feel like I'm trying to get ahold of something I never should have let go off, so I can move into the future with it. But at the same time, I didn't see any other choice in my actions...at least in the outcome.

Thank you, Parker. I still love you, too. I hope you're well.

[claire_danes]

i think it makes a whole lot of sense, i wish i could listen to my heart, because you're right, it wants what it wants, it's difficult to convince it otherwise.

i'm glad you're back.

[fab_boy]

You can ignore your heart for only so long, and then you have to act, whether you want to or not.

Good to be back, darling. Thanks.

[howie_day]

Your heart wants what it wants.

Wow do I understand that all too well. It's really good to see you back, Rufus. I hope it all works out.

[fab_boy]

It's striking a universal chord that I wasn't expecting. It's kind of comforting.

Good to hear from you, Howie. And thanks...I hope it does, too.

[stephentrask]

i have about three months of writing in response to this in my journal, my over-dramatic flailings at you, and crammed in my head, and for the life of me i have no idea what to say here and now.

i know what my heart wants and i'm just as afraid of it as you. and along with fear i have a dangerous amount of bitterness and pain to fuel it for a long time. we thought the odds were against us the first time and had the audacity to commend ourselves for the strength we showed in holding it together despite them. i'd do anything for that simplicity now. and still, i love you. i always have, and the amount and intensity has never changed. not once. so that's something of a foundation to build on.

[fab_boy]

I want your bitterness and your pain...as strange as that sounds. Maybe it's the masochist in me, but I just want to keep absorbing it to see how much I can take before it completely breaks me.

I don't want to recapture that time. It was beautiful, but it was hard...a different kind of hard. And I love you about a hundred times more now than I did then, so it doesn't compare. I'm counting on that intensity of emotion to take the brunt of the increased difficulties we're facing. And to provide a foundation that I need.