It drives me mad not knowing
Everything is probably fine. I just... I can't help but worry. I mean - you do that, right? When something's happened - and it could've gone well or really badly - to one of your friends, you're instinct is to worry right? Or am I abnormal and/or really paranoid
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I'm just so screwed up.
I felt so sick and scared lastnight, and I felt so STUPID.
I ran into my parents room in the night and said, 'Mum, I really need to talk to you.'
We sat in the dark in my room, I said I'd done something really stupid, explained why I did it...
But I cried for like an hour and a half telling my mum about everything, about the reasons and things.
She said, 'What have you done?', and I kept going 'Its so, so STUPID, Im so stupid', crying and crying.
Guess thats the past 5 months or so just bottled up.
She asked if Id done something with Dan, or if I'd gotten a tattoo.
But no.
And I know its not that big a deal, but I was always told I wasnt allowed. And I always respected my parents, and-
Ohh.
My mum went out to tell my dad, and he came in, and held me and I cried and cried, and couldnt speak much but 'Im sorry'
And he said it was okay, and held me...
I feel so horrible, Im a horrible, cruel person. My parents didnt need this..
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If I thought my Mum would react like that, I'd probably rather do what you did, but she wouldn't.
Do you regret it then? You said it was stupid, but you were up for it at the time. I feel bad now. Sorry :S
You're not cruel. It'd probably be worse if you did what I'm doing. They're probably glad that you felt like you could tell them, even if inbetween tears, but they still have to give punishments, right?
Hope you're ok. Give me a call if you like. Love you x x x
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You been found out yet? Mine kinda smarts when I twist it and it rubs the solid bit, agh
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Mine sort've...doesn't hurt but I can feel it. It wasn't twisting properly earlier, but it's fine now.
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