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[fabiola_maria]

My grandpa died this Monday.

It's my first big death experience and I just don't know. I haven't cried enough, I've made myself not to. During his funeral I simply kept avoiding people, especially the ones crying; I had my arms crossed, teeth clenched, not letting anything escape me.
At first I felt nothing, and I felt nothing about feeling

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[maramyanet]

Lo siento muchísimo. Una muerte nunca es fácil, especialmente con las emociones que de repente te atacan, aunque algunas veces las más fuertes toman un poco en hacerse sentir. Entiendo perfectamente lo que es perder a un ser querido - yo ya he perdido demasiados, pero un consuelo debe ser el hecho que tu abuelo vivió una vida larga. Es un poco cliché lo que voy a decir ahora, pero es la pura verdad y lo que brega pues se sigue usando. Recuerda los momentos lindos que compartiste con tu abuelo, mantelos en tu corazón y deja que esas memorias te llenen de amor. No te deprimas chica, toma refugio en tu familia y amigos. La vida sigue, y estoy segura que tu abuelito te quiere ver feliz, no toda deprimida y escondiéndote debajo de las sabanas, aunque claro todo en su tiempo… pasos pequeños que también tienes todo el derecho a llorar y sentirte triste por tu gran perdida, pero ya sabes, no debes ver este tiempo en tu vida y como te sientes como algo permanente. El dolor pasara, aunque la tristeza permanecera, pero un poco de tristeza nunca

[fabiola_maria]

Muchas gracias, Mara. Those are very pretty words.
I'm much better now :)

[fabiola_maria]

Thank you :)

[fabiola_maria]

Thanks.
I'm much better now =)

[landlocked]

:(

I've heard of older people being in the same situation as your grandfather: mind perfectly healthy, but weak physically. A lot of times this makes them feel useless, like you mentioned, because they can't do many things for themselves anymore. It's a loss of independence that hurts the most. At any rate, at least you can know he's at peace now. I'll keep you and your family in my thoughts.

[fabiola_maria]

Thank you.
Yes, it really hurt me to see him so dependent on other people. It comforts me to think he's finally at peace.

[reader_meg]

*hugs* I'm sorry.

[fabiola_maria]

Thank you :)