sleepless.
Absolutely horrible.
That make me question my self worth (am I good enough, vocal enough to do all that is required to raise not just myself but more importantly everyone as a whole?). It's not a question of whether we're hardworking and industrious, that I know we are. It's not a question of whether we have the balls or not, that I know we do (well, most of us at least). The more I think about it, the more I feel that the problem is our raison d'etre on the field - our purpose, our passion, our pride. And pride is everything lacking.
I don't know how much we really want it, really. But I can say it means the world to me; my drive, vigour, energy. I don't ever ever want to go out there and let everyone else walk all over us. That's not just embarrassing, it's downright shameful to lose in school colours. It'll mean we've let the whole school down. Heck even if there's no support, we're playing for pride. No one should dare give up a fight when he's in our colours. The season means the world to me.
It's okay to lose when we've given it our all. Nothing red-faced about to fall against stronger opponents. But I really think it's the batlle within we have to win first before even thinking of conquering without.
12 more days.
That make me question my self worth (am I good enough, vocal enough to do all that is required to raise not just myself but more importantly everyone as a whole?). It's not a question of whether we're hardworking and industrious, that I know we are. It's not a question of whether we have the balls or not, that I know we do (well, most of us at least). The more I think about it, the more I feel that the problem is our raison d'etre on the field - our purpose, our passion, our pride. And pride is everything lacking.
I don't know how much we really want it, really. But I can say it means the world to me; my drive, vigour, energy. I don't ever ever want to go out there and let everyone else walk all over us. That's not just embarrassing, it's downright shameful to lose in school colours. It'll mean we've let the whole school down. Heck even if there's no support, we're playing for pride. No one should dare give up a fight when he's in our colours. The season means the world to me.
It's okay to lose when we've given it our all. Nothing red-faced about to fall against stronger opponents. But I really think it's the batlle within we have to win first before even thinking of conquering without.
12 more days.