...soo badly i wish i could tell you to your face...
kevin,
i dont mean to sound weird or obsessed by any means, but for the past few weeks i have been thinking about nothing but you. obviously we are not meant to be, but something in my heart just tells me not to give up. you told me to m.o.v.e. o.n. and i did. however i always find myself falling back in l-o-v-e with you. i hear shit about you still liking shelby or whatever, but, thats your business not mine. i just wish i could show you how much of an impact you made on my life. you probably wont believe this, but when i told you i loved you...the 1st, 2nd 3rd, 4th etc. time i meant it....really i did. i know i am a screw up and i dont deserve to have you b a c k , but i just wish i could show you my love for you was soo true.
my friends are like y o u ...they tell me to m.o.v.e. o.n., but for a totally different reason. they believe i deserve better. honestly i dont know what is better than you. i was able to be myself around you (even if it didnt seem like it) and i trusted you. i know most of your friends hated me. well probably all of your friends, but i dont understand why?:-/ you mean more than the world to me!!! i dont know what else to say because you told me we will not get another chance. those hurtful words play over and over again in my head. yet i still w.i.s.h. we could try again (just one mor time). a promise is a promise and i would never break your heart. you really mean too much to me.
i want to be your freind soo bad. just go back to the way things once were. however i dont think i understand how bad i would hurt. everytime i see you i want to b-r-e-a-k down (which is no longer very much) and cry, but i stay strong because i dont want anyone to know how deeply i still am in love with you.....
love always and forever
Heather
happy valentines day to you too...
at least you said hello