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First you loved me,
Then you left me.
First you helped me,
Then you destroyed me.
First you were there for me,
Then you just let me fall.
And, with no one to catch me,
I fell towards the unknown, towards my end.
I didn't know you were falling to,
you'd never tell me, you just let me go.
I cried for you, and I lied for you.
I waited, and waited, I hoped you'd come back to me.
I held out for so long.
You came and went, I didn't know what to do.
You stopped the wounds when you first came,
and then you almost made me start again.
Then, you were gone, for good.
Well - that's what you said.
Every so often, you spoke again.
The same thing everytime....I'm worthless. I still, and will always, love you.
I'm sorry for ever coming into your life...
Night after night liquid diamonds fell from my eyes.
Night after night I prayed and wished for you to be you again.
One day, in my mind, it clicked.
You hurt me over an over, and I have to let you go.
And, for a while there, I did.
Somehow, I forgot you, and didn't worry.
Then you came back, and you were...yourself.
It brang tears, I was releived.
But just when I thought all was well,
you snapped again.
The messages, the calls.
And I've come running back.
Wanting you to go back again,
hoping I could pull you back.
And have you be the person I fell in love with,
and care for more than life its self.
No matter how many tears I cry for you,
no matter how many hours I stay wake with thoughts of you,
no matter how many times you tear me apart,
I'll always come running back.
You're a drug, a noxious concoction.
You poison my mind, and my soul.
You destroy whatever is left of me.
But I'm addicted.
And nothing will make me stop