I just had to blog this before i forget it forever. Me and Ryan went to see the tree like we do every year in the city last week and it was a perfect night like it's always been. We went to see the tree and for some reason i don't remember why were talking about our future or something and ryan made my heart melt a little he said something like we' ( Read more... )

i'm going to be famous one day...even if it's only 15 minutes of fame. I have a feeling about it.

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it was so fun, i remember me and a few friends sitting on the steps in front of my dorm outside and this guy walking up to us asking if we wanted to be on the graham norton effect and that marilyn manson was a guest, after that i was sold, i mean i don't like his music but he himself intrigues me he's funny and pretty interesting soooo this night ( Read more... )

today seems to be all about making me deal with janes death cuz i haven't. I went to therapy today for the first time since june, i had a bunch to get out and then i saw this commercial tonite and it made me break down again. I wish i did have some closure, i guess it will come in time.

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Me and Nicole are starting a peace rally in union square one of these coming saturdays, we figured we're going to have to take some initiative in taking steps towards a better future. Even if we only touch a few people its better than none am i right? I think so. Nobody can disagree with wanting the world to be peaceful, is it and idealistic view? ( Read more... )

was fun, aside from only being able to go on three rides and the food sucking haha It was still fun, i like the way they decorate the park and the music thats playing all over the park. Me and ryan went on EL Toro and i think we both pissed ourselves, not really but we were both screaming the whole time, the drop is seriously completely vertical ( Read more... )

Jenny you're barely alive is on my myspace profile now, i always feel like my song has to represent me in some way and well thats how i feel ( Read more... )

So im gonna write about this cuz it's been bothering me a lot and the only person i mentioned it to was ryan. But anyways janes death has still been taking a toll on me, only when i go to bed though. I mean everyday i think about her at least once and it bothers the shit out of me that she's really not here anymore and that i won't ever be able to ( Read more... )

well maybe not even lately, but i've been really happy with my life and everything in it. I have the greatest friends and the most amazing boyfriend ever and we all have so much fun together. Im really content right now with everything. Im going to montreal with Ryan on my bday im pretty excited for that. It's gonna be alot of fun and I much rather ( Read more... )

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