nameless desire

[fading_sunset5]

read my last entry if you havent yet before you read this. k? good.

Angie's comment was so right on that it's making my entry:
It's just that way because you are so mature. You are mentally and emotionally way far above most everybody else, especially the boys. Emphasis on boys. You want somebody who isn't a complete idiot and knows how to take

Comments

[ever_here]

i totally agree. older people are, usually, more interesting to talk to then stupid teens. but then when i want to hang out with them my mother flips out.

[fading_sunset5]

what parents don't know may or may not hurt them, but right now it would benefit me immensely if they didn't know hahaha

[moviequeen17]

mama shan, i love you. and i know you are confused, but i love you anyway. :D

you ARE a mature person, and that's got its good points and its bad points. i know what it's like to love the company of older people who think you're older, too. it's cool to be "beyond your years," which is what i would say if i was ridiculously clichè like that. lmao. but it sucks when you get a reality check and realize that you're still in high school.

i guess that the bottom line issssssss, you are fabulous and deserve to find a really amazing person who loves you to death. i don't even know where i'm going with this. love is confusing as shit, and i know that from alotalotalot of confusing love experience. you know that too. just know that you deserve to stick around and wait for a real relationship that will make you happy.

i am always available for emotional girly talks. like you didn't know that lol.

&hearts maudie

[fading_sunset5]

its funny, because i'm not really putting love in here. at least im not meaning to. my mind just heads to maddening physical attention and a few compliments haha.

but thank you for your input. it's valued immensely. and i would HOPE you would still love me when im confused ahahah. if not then you owuldnt love me a lot of the time. :D

[chatterbox8388]

shannnnonnn it sounds like your mind is everywhere. maybe you can find someone that is at your level of inteligence or thinking..and maybe not be 15 years older than you? and wait a second what is this 15 years my senior??? i remember that in like to kill a mockingbird and catcher in the rye! and i never understood it but now i think i understand yay! sorry i just had to share that with you...anyway
i really hope you can figure this out..life is too confusing..it's annoying. try not to over analyze things and try to start thinking about other things rather than worrying about this...if you wont ever see him again it might hurt a lot more when he's gone and you still wonder about these things... :(

[fading_sunset5]

Well I'm glad my vocabulary has taught you something! :)

I over analyze fucking everything.

[frozenxkiss]

Think of it this way before you get yourself worked up into a fit.

You'll be 18 in about a month. Pretty much anything will be legal. Weird, but legal.

Would a relationship come from this person, or is it just a fantasy?

Are you really interested in him or is it just because he's paying attention to you?

Just a few things to consider before you get worked up thinking that you're going crazy.

[fading_sunset5]

oh yes, it seems that everyone at my place of business is aware that I will be 18 in a month. That's more weird than I can take lmao.
I don't want a RELATIONSHIP to come out of this. Actually, Since two days agho I haven't really wanted anything. Maybe just to hear that the attention is for a reason. Basically, like a compliment. Like " I find you in my league and am very attracted to you even though I shouldn't be". And then we can still act buddy buddy on the rare occasions when he has to come back to work to do his little side-work with repairs. That's all, lmfao.

well we both know that I've always been a litle crazy in the head so.... :)

[backyardsoccer]

i totally understand the not wanting a relationship but wanting compliments and maybe having a crush thing. i do that all the time. unfortunatly i'm inexperienced and naive when it comes to relationships and i wish i could help you more.......... i really do. you can talk to me anytime. love you!!!

becca

[fading_sunset5]

lol well lets hope you dont think about men twice your age