Valentines Day was perfect with uh...well a few altercations. Derek surprised me with beautiful flowers when he came to get me. They were very pretty, tulips. yay! Then he took me to dinner at a nice resteruant of which i cannot spell it's name. We were supposed to be picked up by a friend and taken to his house, i think (?), but she kinda went ( Read more... )

Nightmares haunted me all night. I can't explain why, or how. I mean I am so incredibly happy right now it just doesn't make sense to me...But does anything ever make sense to me when I get like this? Nightmares only come with depression. My living situation has me in the total duldrums. BIG TIME ( Read more... )

So I was at work today and around three, close to four I got a call from Derek askin if I felt spoiled yet. Naturally I got confuzzeled then finally asked him...."What'd you do?" He got all sly like and said you'll see. Then said that I was gonna hate him. He asked me if I liked them pale and sweet. I got confuzzeled again. A little while after I ( Read more... )

Now then....I'm still alive. I'm on new meds cuz I went insane again and had to be re-evaluated twice. Yeah....they took me to the hospit and ran all these tests and took all this blood and did and ekg. Damn doctors at West Pines told the hospital i took to much asprin....which...considering i'm a pill popper on occasion, is true. Anyways. I'm ( Read more... )

Still alive an kickin ( Read more... )

Wee, well...Glad to say that i am no back in school, very close to graduateing with a real diploma. Not looking forward to the math part but i am very willing to doing it. I can write again. Yay. In fact thats what i am doing today finding all my writting and putting them in the leathing bound journal my mother bought for me for christmas for my ( Read more... )

Happy chrismahankwanikkah!

Well folks, things are better. MUCH BETTER. I'm glad to announce that i am now sane. sorta. lol. Sarah's back and shes happy to be back. weep!

Read this...lets see if you can figure it out ( Read more... )

So, I was reminded.....by a dream. Of something very dear that i held in my hands. Well, not something but someone. This week...along with losing my sanity i have been reminded by my mind of all the evil vendictive things i have done in my life. And i think....i think that what's happening right now is everything bad, evil and horrid i have done in ( Read more... )

Here I go again tryin to defend my dignity. What the hell have i done to deserve all this shit? Really ( Read more... )