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[faeriecalling]

it's hard to believe it's been just a week since i left what feels like most of my heart in north carolina. i don't know what i expected to feel, but last sunday was the most painful day of my life. saying goodbye, one by one, watching my kids drive away, knowing it will be months before i see them again

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[try_disgrace]

mom! i didn't know you wrote in this... I'm sorry that you felt so hurt. I hope you are happy in new york. I miss you very much and i love you more than anything.

you write so wonderfully. I hope one day to compare.

I can't wait to see you this summer.

your boy,
Justin

[faeriecalling]

hey how did you find this? i didn't know other people could see it. ha ha ha on me.

as long as i keep the hurt of missing you and your sisters boxed up and compartmentalized, i am really happy here. but every once in a while it escapes (like now) and i just can't stop crying. every fiber in my body aches.

but like i told you before - i'm determined to make things work here, and be happy and be successful (more on that in a post later) - because somehow i have to find some justification for hurting you and kate and beth by leaving, and if i fail here, then i have failed the three of you miserably.

i can't wait to see you this summer either, baby.

all my love, always,

momma