angsting about over-eating. (read: i lack self-control)
I ate a TON of food today. I am not kidding. Because I am the type of person who has no self-control when it comes to food, and I can never tell when I am full. Why is that, I wonder? Why oh why can't my stomach judge when it is full? *self-disgust*
Lunch today was killer. I had, just to name a few, cake, macaroni and cheese, turkey, spinach with meat, some weird but nice salad thing, pumpkin pie and like eight more dishes that I couldn't identify, but that were just SO GOOD.
That alone had to be like 187348 calories, I'm sure.
And then, for dinner... Oh, gosh.
I was hosted to Thanksgiving dinner by a nice American family, and we had... let's see. Cranberry sauce, turkey stuffing, turkey, sweet potatoes, mashed potatoes, salad, tortilla chips with salsa sauce, cream cheese with cranberry chutney on wheat thins, sparkling grape juice, wheat bread, walnuts, hazelnuts, pistachio nuts, white wine even though i'm underage, apple pie, cranberry pie, pecan pie, pumpkin pie...
And I ate all of it. I liked it so, so much, I stuffed myself. Must have had like five/six helpings, in all. (and i'm not kidding, here) Oh, gosh. *despair* My non-existent diet!
*adds on 19873230 more calories to today's intake*
I am doomed. Because tomorrow I will be going to Chicago. Which means even MORE good food. Dim sum, Malaysian cuisine, etc...
I can see the scale moving up 10 kilos, already.
(but it was really good food. i am happy. until i think of the havoc it's going to wreak on my non-existent figure. hmm. still, good food)
Had very meaningful conversation tonight. *blissful smile* Because my host turned out to be someone who holds views very similar to mine on religion, culture, and the like. He majored in Comparative Religion, and has a Master's in Transpersonal Psychology, which focuses on spirituality and what it means to a person. Even did counselling before in that area. Basically, he's very open to all religions, very drawn to mystic and deeply spiritual people, and is more interested in what it means to a person, and how it affects the person as a believer, than the actions or dogma of that religion itself. He's the type of person who explores all cultures, all mythology, and really wants to know the spiritual experiences of a person, that caused that person to be have faith in that particular religion.
We had very good conversations. =)
[Addition] It's snowing in Cornell and Chicago. Apparently, it was supposed to snow in Madison today, but the wind inexplicably enough made a little turn and slammed into Chicago instead. Hah. So we'll probably get snow tomorrow or day after tomorrow instead. Except I won't be around to see it. Will be in Chicago (which is already snowing. *unamused*)
Lunch today was killer. I had, just to name a few, cake, macaroni and cheese, turkey, spinach with meat, some weird but nice salad thing, pumpkin pie and like eight more dishes that I couldn't identify, but that were just SO GOOD.
That alone had to be like 187348 calories, I'm sure.
And then, for dinner... Oh, gosh.
I was hosted to Thanksgiving dinner by a nice American family, and we had... let's see. Cranberry sauce, turkey stuffing, turkey, sweet potatoes, mashed potatoes, salad, tortilla chips with salsa sauce, cream cheese with cranberry chutney on wheat thins, sparkling grape juice, wheat bread, walnuts, hazelnuts, pistachio nuts, white wine even though i'm underage, apple pie, cranberry pie, pecan pie, pumpkin pie...
And I ate all of it. I liked it so, so much, I stuffed myself. Must have had like five/six helpings, in all. (and i'm not kidding, here) Oh, gosh. *despair* My non-existent diet!
*adds on 19873230 more calories to today's intake*
I am doomed. Because tomorrow I will be going to Chicago. Which means even MORE good food. Dim sum, Malaysian cuisine, etc...
I can see the scale moving up 10 kilos, already.
(but it was really good food. i am happy. until i think of the havoc it's going to wreak on my non-existent figure. hmm. still, good food)
Had very meaningful conversation tonight. *blissful smile* Because my host turned out to be someone who holds views very similar to mine on religion, culture, and the like. He majored in Comparative Religion, and has a Master's in Transpersonal Psychology, which focuses on spirituality and what it means to a person. Even did counselling before in that area. Basically, he's very open to all religions, very drawn to mystic and deeply spiritual people, and is more interested in what it means to a person, and how it affects the person as a believer, than the actions or dogma of that religion itself. He's the type of person who explores all cultures, all mythology, and really wants to know the spiritual experiences of a person, that caused that person to be have faith in that particular religion.
We had very good conversations. =)
[Addition] It's snowing in Cornell and Chicago. Apparently, it was supposed to snow in Madison today, but the wind inexplicably enough made a little turn and slammed into Chicago instead. Hah. So we'll probably get snow tomorrow or day after tomorrow instead. Except I won't be around to see it. Will be in Chicago (which is already snowing. *unamused*)