I wish I could make my family happy and my friends happy and me happy. I wish I could make everything better again and just be a normal schoolgirl with a normal life, someone who means it when she smiles and whose laugh doesn't sound hollow. Every morning when I wake up and look in the mirror I stare at myself and try to convince myself that today ( Read more... )

O... M... G. Today was the maths excursion to Luna Park. 'Twas splendiferously fun! Doolz and Alex and Is somehow convinced me to go on the flying saucer, it was the first ride I've ever been on that goes *gasp* upside down. At first it was just heaps of fun but then when it went completely vertical I freaked out lol. It was still fun... in the ( Read more... )

I stayed home from school today. It was relaxing, but boring. I think I've secured that job I mentioned. I stayed home cause when I woke up this morning I felt crap. I'm so utterly sick of falling apart at school, and I just knew if I went there it was going to happen at one point or another, so I avoided it entirely. And I'm glad I did. The ( Read more... )

Yayness, I got 94% on my computers exam. And 90% in French, and 80% in maths, which I guess is pretty good. I don't know why I'm so fucking hard on myself, as soon as I got the maths exam back I felt like cutting. But... 80% on an advanced test isn't bad, right? 83% was the class average. And maths is my hardest subject so I guess in perspective it ( Read more... )

Last night was fun. Grease was great, and I actually managed to kind of speak to Is's boyfriend. *gasp* And they weren't all over each other, so I got to talk to Is! *double gasp* She's pissed off at him cause he didn't introduce her to his mum. I slept over at her house last night, which hadn't been planned, so was like double the fun. But as ( Read more... )

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*sigh* Today was kind of a bad day. It's gotten better towards the end, but... meh. I had my singing teacher's "soiree" (lol) tonight. I was sure I was going to stuff up my songs but apparently I sang my best ever. *shrugs* I tend to surprise myself with singing. I didn't even think I'd done well cause my mouth was really dry, but it's all good I ( Read more... )

"Don't be afraid of the shadows. It only means there's a light nearby." - Amy LeeSigh. I don't know what sort of a mood I'm in tonight. I've been in this mood all day... it's like halfway to being depressed but more just reflective... I feel kind of displaced from life, like I'm standing back and looking at it through a window. I think I would have ( Read more... )

Weeeeell. I'm quite overwhelmed. It's only Thursday and already this week has been enormous. I went to Melbourne over the weekend for the future problem solving nationals and OMG... we came first!! I was so amazed, it took me by COMPLETE surprise... I think the rest of my team were really surprised too... it was so wonderful, everyone was so happy ( Read more... )