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[faeriestear]

i'm in an interesting place right now, and i'm not really sure how to absorb it. i've started to realize for the first time in my life that i'm not meant to just internalize things, and in fact, i do get angry, jealous, frustrated, and i do need to express these emotions. maybe it's being among all these incredibly healthy people at wilson that's

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[radio_for_two]

i recall a wintry season, just about a year ago, when I felt like Wilson was closing in around me-- that the cheery, tipsy faces of post-sixties hippies and cherrybark-tough farm boys had all turned from jovial to jeering, and that everyone was full of hot air, moonshine, and too much of a bad thing. I felt like I was suffocating, trying to please them, smile at them, use the slick shiny porcelain of my toothy grin to blind them, make them less terrifying, somehow vulnerable