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Apr 25, 2005 21:32

So i really dont know what it is but ive been pretty depressed all evening. I dont understand it. I dont know why. This is so stupid. I just feel like complete crap. I mean are you supposed to feel like this when highschool is finally coming to an end. are you supposed to end it with no friends. Feeling like all your friends dont seem to matter ( Read more... )

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myexoticgarden April 25 2005, 18:50:09 UTC

Hey, you're the one that didn't care about me as much as I cared about you.. You're the one that said you didn't want to try to help anymore. It's not my fault that we don't talk. I try to talk and be nice and stuff. But no, I get ignored.

failedattempt05 April 25 2005, 19:02:12 UTC

do you ever get over things and stop thinking that everythings about you. it kills me i hate it. i dont care really i dont. this isnt even about you. its so pathetic im sick of it. you always seem to try to make me feel bad about somthing its not my fucking fault ok so give it up im tired of this bullshit thanks bye

myexoticgarden April 25 2005, 19:53:21 UTC

I didn't say it was about me. But since you were bringing up something about losing friends, I thought I would say something about it. I don't think everything is about me. I asked how you were doing all the time, I made sure I did, I would have felt terrible if I didn't. I would call you and check on you when you missed church, or I would see if you were okay when you had up some depressing away. Matt, I did care about you as a friend. I thought you cared too, but I guess you didn't. Bleh, it's fine.

failedattempt05 April 25 2005, 20:42:48 UTC

ofcourse it always comes down to me never caring enough or me never doing anything good enough . exactly w/e i dont care. its a never ending battle and im finished . its so pathetic how a entry that has nothing to do with you and i end up getting in a argument with you . pathetic

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x0behindblueyes April 26 2005, 12:33:56 UTC

umm...i dont understand why you turn this into something about you. I dont mean to sound like the bitch here but he came to his lj to unwind and write down his feelings, not to here about how hes so horrible to you. I don't mean to sound cold and bitter but not everyone you like is neccesarily gonna like you back. and i swear im not trying to sound mean, im just giving you advice...

pickingskabs April 26 2005, 12:38:05 UTC

aww matt. im so sorry. i know we arent really close or anything, but if you ever need to talk, im always free and i keep everything to myself (seriously, you can trust me). I think you are hilarious and a really cool guy, and i dont understand why you think you need to apologize for that. and i know what it feels like to have friends drift away. it really hurts and im really sorry you have to feel that. have you tried talking out the situation with the friends you're having problems with? when i've done that with people i know, it turns out to be a big misunderstanding that got blown out of proportion. well, i hope everything works out for you. i really do. take care.

oracle_erin April 26 2005, 13:40:10 UTC

It doesn't matter how many friends you have... its how close those friends are to you. You can have a million friends who mean nothing, and have just 2 or 3 who you can tell anything to and really care about. It sounds cheesy, but its something I've learned over the past year. I feel lucky that your one of my best friends. And, I'm so honored that I'm one of yours.
...I wish things could go back to the way they were, but sometimes, it isn't so bad only having those couple people- Those are the only people your going to remember later down the road anyways.

sunshine8187 April 28 2005, 11:21:02 UTC

Well i'm not sure if this is about me, no wait I KNOW IT IS ABOUT me b/c yu said that erin and john r your 2 close friends what happened to SIER??!! Yeah things feel really werid between you and me and i don't know why this is, you've have told me things that i keep to my self so don't think that what ever that you told me is going around to other ppl, imean come on! If you don't want me sayinganything all you do i tell me and i won't, and ussally if it's about a certain topic i KNOW NOT TO SAY ANYTHING! I tried to talk to you the other day but u didn't even seem to try to talk to me, then i decided that i would just get off the phone and let you cool down or whatever, but then i remembered our last fight when u said that I NEVER TRIED TO HANG OUT WITH U, so i called u back to see if we could hang out, but this time YOU were to BUSY for ME!-But that is totally cool I understand these things,-stuff happens, i hate when i read that you are feeling like shit and hurts when i know you are hurting, I just wish that we could make it better ( ... )