So last night was nifty. Me and Calee went to the MacArthur football game to meet up with Mikey. Then Calee left because she was too cold. I stayed there. And Jeff told me I had to go to Mikey's after the game. So without thinking about how I was getting home, I said okay. Then some kid named Andy was supposed to take Mikey to Niantic to get his ( Read more... )

Today surely felt like a regular school day instead of a half day. I don't know everything has been dragging lately. It's like I'm anxious for something...but I don't know what it is. I think I might know what I'm anxious for, but then again maybe I'm just being stupid. I do that a lot. So I've lost my writing mojo. I'm going to try and sit down ( Read more... )

Yeah so I'm a failure at life. I give up. I quit. There's nothing I can do to change anything anyone feels about me. I don't understand it. Maybe I should just go kill myself. I need to get over it...but I can't. I don't know how. What are you supposed to do when you care about someone so much and you can't relieve those feelings by being with them ( Read more... )

So like I had this weird ass dream last night about UFOs and Freddy Krugar and then my dead grandpa appeared in his coffin just like he was at his funeral. Yeah so everyone knows that he died on my birthday...I wonder if maybe that's why I keep having dreams about him in the coffin ( Read more... )

Okay so today was like...blah. I am seriously sick of school. To the point where yet again, being there makes me want to hang myself. So yeah my cell phone got shut off today. So for those of you who ever do give enough of a shit to call just call the house. No calls past nine on school nights though. And ten or eleven on weekends. I dunno I can't ( Read more... )

I guess I can tell Shea never mind about homecoming now. I don't think that he really wanted to go with me anyways. I mean why would he? It's me. It would've been fun, but I can't even afford homecoming now so...yeah I guess I have to miss out this year ( Read more... )

Things have been crazy lately. I'm used to getting what I want. Well lately, I haven't been getting what I want. There's just one particular thing I want more than anything...like I want it so bad that like I get really sad when I think about it ( Read more... )

I hate school. I hate the teachers. I hate the students. Basically I hate that entire place. I hate me too. The thing I hate most about me...is the fact that I'm still living. The more I think about it, I hate James too. That relationship has made me pretty much incapable of ever loving another human being again. I put so much time into revolving ( Read more... )