all better...

[failyerbydzine]

just got outta the shower and im feelin lots better now... not all emo and pessimistic like i was feelin in my last entry... now im just like... ehh.. oh well... there are a few things that still bother me though... it has nothing to do with Kyle though... basically the last few weeks Desire' has told me how she feels about me.. which is pretty

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[adrian_caesar]

Dude...you can't let her lead you around like this. I have to say it: it's like she's keeping you hanging on so that she has so place to go if she can't find anyone else, and that is JUST NOT FUCKING COOL AT ALL!

You deserve someone who is not going to play all of these mind-fuck games with you. I mean shit, bro...none of what she does is very healthy, not for her and DEFINITELY not for you! >.<

Anyway, I'm not gonna preach anymore. Just...do what you will, man, but don't live for someone else this completely...especially when your whole only makes up a portion of their part, y'know? >.< Take it easy and hopefully I'll catch ya later at some point.

[adrian_caesar]

P.S. Don't let it sound like I am coming off as bashing Desire, either. I don't really think that she knows what she wants, either, and all of this kind of stuff is just a safeguard against uncertainty, as well. I don't really know her, but I DO know the situation...a bit TOO well. @_@

hmm....

[failyerbydzine]

hey tom... i dont think you completely understand the situation that desire' and i are in right now... and that's not your fault at all... most of my journal entries have been completely bias and for the most part me over reacting and just having an "emo" moment... truth is... right now is just not a good time for her and i to be together... she lives a few hours away and she needs to start focusing on school and nothing else and that is pretty much what she is doing... we still talk pretty much every day and we are both fully aware of how we feel about each other and what we want/expect from the other person.. basically all we are doing is just taking a step back and focusing on things other than ourselves which is good for me as well... i've learned a few things about what i have been doin as well... i.e. ive been dependant on her for my happiness... and that has got to put a lot of stress on her and strain on our relationship... without this break up i probably would have gone on the same way i have been... and i can understand why

Re: hmm....

[adrian_caesar]

Gotcha. Rock rock on.