Another Chapter
I dont know what compels me to write only the bad things in my journal. I dont find my daily life all that interesting and the good things havent been all that signifigant. Today/Night its grief!
I'm hurting a lot right now from the untimely death of my dog. It was a cancer around the spleen and a rupture. Sometime inside the hour of 10:00p.m. he jumped on my bed (wish I had seen whether he made it up there w/o complications) and since then was basically collapsed. We (me and mom) were not aware of the true reason (thinking it was leg problems). As it steadily got worse, well the vet told us the rest.
No signs, he was fine and more full of energy after being returned from groomers but that was less than 24 hours and I guess the stress from grooming the area was a contributing factor. It just took that last bit of pressure (jump) b/c supposedly these things happen all at once (not uncommonly) so in a matter of minutes legs dropped and mostly being unresponsive were the syptoms. In the end, we said our goodbyes and I watched him til the end while being put to sleep. We decided to keep the ashes once they're ready. I only worry for my sister who is staying over her fathers til Sun and will be told then...
Random thoughts: Sending him to the groomers will haunt me as being a bad idea for long after. Not that I knew, but putting him thru it all only to die (took 2 days until shaving him was decided better b/c he was well matted). Saying no at the vets for operation was in my opinion the right thing to do, for him being a bad canidate (advanced age) for it plus the 2 month estimated lifespan thereafter. So I prayed and cry still, both of which are foriegn to me, yet the bit of rainfall directly after he was gone assures me I was heard and it'll be ok!
I assume it'll be awhile since I'll be back to myself. I dont know whether I wanna be alone or with friends. I'll heal, though this is my second dog and sometimes still the loss of my first one pains me. Yes, Rex I miss you too!
Now though, I miss my Husky!!!
King 93-06
I'm hurting a lot right now from the untimely death of my dog. It was a cancer around the spleen and a rupture. Sometime inside the hour of 10:00p.m. he jumped on my bed (wish I had seen whether he made it up there w/o complications) and since then was basically collapsed. We (me and mom) were not aware of the true reason (thinking it was leg problems). As it steadily got worse, well the vet told us the rest.
No signs, he was fine and more full of energy after being returned from groomers but that was less than 24 hours and I guess the stress from grooming the area was a contributing factor. It just took that last bit of pressure (jump) b/c supposedly these things happen all at once (not uncommonly) so in a matter of minutes legs dropped and mostly being unresponsive were the syptoms. In the end, we said our goodbyes and I watched him til the end while being put to sleep. We decided to keep the ashes once they're ready. I only worry for my sister who is staying over her fathers til Sun and will be told then...
Random thoughts: Sending him to the groomers will haunt me as being a bad idea for long after. Not that I knew, but putting him thru it all only to die (took 2 days until shaving him was decided better b/c he was well matted). Saying no at the vets for operation was in my opinion the right thing to do, for him being a bad canidate (advanced age) for it plus the 2 month estimated lifespan thereafter. So I prayed and cry still, both of which are foriegn to me, yet the bit of rainfall directly after he was gone assures me I was heard and it'll be ok!
I assume it'll be awhile since I'll be back to myself. I dont know whether I wanna be alone or with friends. I'll heal, though this is my second dog and sometimes still the loss of my first one pains me. Yes, Rex I miss you too!
Now though, I miss my Husky!!!
King 93-06