I wear my sunglasses at night
It’s hard to believe the superbowl wasn’t that long ago. For some reason it seems like ages. So lots of different things happening but the most important being my career (or lack there of depending on how you look at it).
Awhile ago I sent off an application for the Conservation and Land Management internship program which is based in Chicago but places interns in states throughout the western US. On my application I stated a preference for 1. Colorado 2. Wyoming 3. New Mexico because I really think this internship would be the way for me to get a permanent position in the government and also to gain experience working with government policies (NEPA- National Environmental Protection Act, ESA- Endangered Species Act, etc) and so I wanted to increase my likelihood of obtaining an internship. Anyway, I my interview was on Wednesday and it went very well (although I seriously felt like a broken record because they basically asked me all the same questions they wanted answered in the cover letter so I just regurgitated my cover letter for them). The only bad part is the position they want to send my information off for is based in Pinedale, WY. What? You don’t know where Pinedale is??? Pinedale is about an hour and half south of Jackson. I have heard mixed reviews about the place after finding out that that’s where they want to send me (beautiful, lots of hiking, worst air quality in the west, it’s a pit) but overall my reaction was “Damn I don’t want to throw my life into upheaval again for 5 months.” That’s when I really started to consider my career and Cory’s career and I started to have a minor freak out and I decided that a discussion was needed.
I was freaking myself out so much that when I got home I downed 2 shots of Sauza (*shiver*) and started sobbing to Cory about how his job requires people and my job requires a distinct lack of people and I had spent a lot of time and money trying to get myself on this career path and he had also worked really hard on his career and I didn’t know how this was all going to work and I didn’t want to leave. Yes it all came out in one big jumble like that. After a calming hug, we discussed some of the options and Cory assured me that no matter what we would work it out somehow and not to get too far ahead of myself because who knows what (where) the next job might be. We could make it 5 months for this internship and then take it from there. I also recently applied to a position in Gunnison (radio-telemetry of Gunnison sage-grouse) so who knows I might end up getting that one instead which would be far away but at least closer than Pinedale. It was just a wake up call to realize that the dream of having it all might not be possible. I feel like I keep getting one part of my life on track and then it derails or inhibits another part which is really frustrating and it makes me feel powerless. Blaaaaaaaaaaah. There really isn’t any reason to freak out just yet anyway because the person in Pinedale still has to look over my information and then if they like me I will have an interview with them.
So enough about that. On to fun stuff. I received a last minute invite from my friend Katie to go to a play with her and her friends. The play was called Girls Only and it rocked! My face hurt from laughing and smiling so much. Katie’s friends are all really cute too and very much involved in the getting married, having babies, buying houses side of life so it was interesting to be involved in that kind of discussion for a bit. Well when we weren’t talking about weird dreams and Fascinations and stuff of that nature. It was definitely a fun night.
I started working on several projects (or at least purchasing the items to start the projects). I would discuss the projects but since I’m sending them out to you all I don’t want to give away the surprise. I did however put together my drawer for my desk which came to me missing the front piece. It was kind of a fun adventure to go to Home Depot at 8:30 am on a Sunday. The people there were really helpful and helped me find a piece of wood that would work. Showed me how I could put it together. Got it all home and got it together and once it was all said and done there is about a centimeter gap in the front of the drawer. Oh well, I just put some papers over the gap so nothing would fall through and called it a day. I’m also going to start working on a quilt and I’m going to quilt it by hand! Crazy I know.