Six more days until P's arrival. I say to myself that I'm not nervous or excited but the big zit on my nose tells me otherwise. I cheated on the healthy eating last night. I was in the mood for a taco so I ended up getting a cheesy gordita crunch from Taco Bell. I didn't go for my walk. Just vegitated on the couch and watched the movie Meet ( Read more... )

"Every day I remind myself that my inner and outer life are based on the labors of other people, living and dead, and that I must exert myself in order to give in the same measure as I have received and am still receiving." - Albert EinsteinFrom FreeWillAstrology.com - AQUARIUS: To begin the 19th season of her TV talk show, Oprah Winfrey gave away ( Read more... )

Okay, so P tells me that generally in his country your friends shorten your name. The short version of his name is Paedu (formal spelling). Actaully it is commonly spelled Padu with an umlaut over the "a". But I can't make special characters with my keyboard. Anyway, I asked him what he would shorten my name to and his response was that he ( Read more... )

Eight more days until P arrives. My stomach is full of butterflies. It seems as if there is not enough time to take care of all that needs to be taking care of. On the other hand, the 20th can't get here soon enough. I think that I am as prepared as I can ever be. I do need to make some time this weekend to ( Read more... )

"I had lived my whole life without paying any attention. It wasn't my life. But once I became aware, I couldn't see anything but." Ann Petry

I cannot pretend that I am not happy. I am. But I had a dream about Mr. Big last night. And it makes me aware of the sorrow my heart feels because of terrible circumstances. The twist of fate that brought us together and yet keeps us apart. ...as I lay next to you, in Silent Lucidity ( Read more... )

Just as intellects are bewildered by my madness, I am bewildered by the frozen state of these intellects. Because in this path, anything other than confusion and madness is distance and alienation from God. --Rumi, translated by Coleman BarksI am on the track of a more essential thing: the compassionate uses of a mortal mind and body. If I learn ( Read more... )

I woke up yesterday with an email from "P" wishing me a good day full of little surprises. It was one of those days where I hit the ground running. Around 1pm, the front desk called. There was a delivery waiting for me. I was a bit curious and went right to the front. I was greeted by an exquisite and intoxicating bouquet of 12 long stem ( Read more... )

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"Sell your cleverness and buy bewilderment."Jalal ud-Din Rumi, Sufi mystic and poet (and founder of the Whirling Dervishes); he was born on this day in 1207, in present-day Afghanistan ( Read more... )