a downer.

[fairybluebell]

I guess i have felt it coming for weeks...that nasty sensation of the walls closing in. tonight it hit me at work, that horrible sense of despair, irrational and too black to see out of. i was so close to doing something stupid, i still might. everything feels like its about to fail, i m really scared work isnt going well....i dont understand why

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[somehowfurious]

Don't do anything stupid, sweetheart. I am right down there in the black with you recently, so you're not alone in feeling like that, if it helps at all. I think it's partly the time of year that makes it so awful, the horrible winter blues.

I may be biased, but I don't think you're a bad person. Human, sure, but we all are, and being human comes with making mistakes and failing sometimes. But you are one of the loveliest and hardest working people I know, so try not to think otherwise. If you feel the need to withdraw for a while and keep your own company, I see nothing wrong with that, but don't let yourself waste away.

I love you terribly.