Remember me for I have gone,
Faded into night,
Left all those who clinged too hard,
Loving of their life,
Remember me for I have gone,
Gleefully I've fled,
Watch the trail of dusted stars,
Seek the fallen, there they are,
Look for me beyond.

[5:35, 5/30/03]

Crazy..

That's what I'd call all this...

This thing called life

The summer air was heavy and sweet ( Read more... )

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It's such a breeze, just sitting back and watching everyone with their books open; studying away. Feet kicked up, staring out into the never-ending blackness of the night sky. Just thinking... reminding myself that I spent a whole year on something like this. Something.. that people are debating.. fighting about day by day..
Something that ( Read more... )

I shouldn't be here -- but what the Hell.
Ashlea, Psuedo, and I are upstairs during lunch ~ I don't care about school anymore.
Last day before AP Exam

Nine hours of studying in ONE day!

Not much left to do but sit here and think about passing...

Here's the Steiner:
Longing to test and get all of this studying over with; anxiety is ( Read more... )

Don’t have much to write today -- Been working on AP Environmental ALL DAY.
Test is Wednesday; Positive attitude leads to positive results.
At least.. That’s what I’ve been taught….

So much work ( Read more... )

“Things are different..”
“It’s not the same”
Yeah, ‘tever. Things are so different now -- Distant if you will. Not sure what to say or do around anyone anymore. Someone tried giving me advice
May 10th, 2003 --

You want to know everything, but you're lucky to have the knowledge that you do. Instead of taking offense, take people on faith. Their ( Read more... )

I need a lock on my door -Parents coming in just whenever they fucking want.. Well, at least I got some sleep last night.. If that what you call it.
So many different ways of living. I’m sick of mine… mom thinks she’s getting anything for mother’s day? Fuck that! It’s times like these where you wonder who had the deranged mind to think up such ( Read more... )

What a waste of time here - nothing to do but sleep in my own realm. You say jump; I say how high. You say run; I say how far. You say bow; I say “How Low” Well, I’m fucking sick of bowing, running, tripping, getting kicked and laughed at… Whatever you want from me, fine - take it. Take my innocence, take my purity, Take me life.. Take anything.. ( Read more... )