Derek had surgery yesterday. I checked in with him last night just to see how he was feeling, he sad he was sore. Honestly I'm not looking forward to the test results coming back, I would rather stay in the dark about how far along his cancer is. I'm scared to death to be honest. We didn't get a chance to see one another while he was home last week ( Read more... )

Why is it that you only text me when your drunk?? What part of "I would give you the world" are you not understanding. I know you have no idea that your breaking my heart slowly, because well lets face it I will never really come out and tell you. I just won't risk loosing you. But seriously Mark Paul why am I only in your head when alcohol is ( Read more... )

I am finally going back to work tomorrow after being off for 6 weeks because of my latest surgery. As excited as I am, I'm terrified at the same time. I feel ready to go back but I am so scared that something is going to go wrong. I'm looking forward to seeing everyone again although I feel like it is going to be ackward. Time will only well, I ( Read more... )

When you love someone the way I love my husband, there are no words. I am thankful everyday for the way he takes care of me and the way he handles all the obsticals we have. Hydrocephalus is hard for the person living it but even harder for the one that has to be along for the ride. I know I scare him but he will never let me see it. Instead he  ( Read more... )

It's amazing how fast time flys by. I have been Mrs. Devin Miller for 99 days today. Still feels like we are just dating but the fact that I can call him my husband makes me happier then I could ever put into words. Things lately have been very lonely he was out of town all week last week for work and is this week as well. He left this morning at ( Read more... )

I love random text messages from you 8 months after we last texted. I love that all it said was

"Is this Halie"
"Yes, whos this"
"Danny"

You will never know or understand your importantance in my life. I will never be able to explain the butterflies you give me or the pull I have sending me in your direction. I deep down always wonder if I have seen ( Read more... )

"I love you...I've loved you all along. I miss you you've been far away for far to long. "

I don't know what is wrong with me, I have not felt this way in the longest time. I don't know if it's stress or loneliness or just a bunch of things rolled into one, but mentally I am about to loose it completely. I can't hold back the tears I've probably been crying for over an hour now. I feel so misunderstood and I for once would love for ( Read more... )

So much has been going on lately, my head is almost spinning. When they say time fly it really does. Most everything is set for the wedding now, I still think my FMIL in crazy. I would like her to just once look joyous about everything going on. And for god sake is the only thing your worried about the drinking at this wedding oh and lets not ( Read more... )

Mom "surprise" party was two days ago, I have to admit it went very well. There were about 20 people at the resturant including the Cignas. I can't help that everytime I see them all I think about is Joey. All in all I think mom was pretty overwelmed but she handled it so well. She loved her birthday gift from Devin and I. I actually kept it a ( Read more... )