I had a good night in which I talked about fun and silly things but also cried about serious and personal things.

I'm glad I live in NYC with two of my good friends. :)

I haven't written anything here in forever and I don't necessarily need to, but I got sick of seeing my most recent post (from MONTHS ago), so here is a POST.

I'm going to miss Pittsburgh and my (very few) friends and connections here, BUT I AM SO EXCITED BUT ALSO TERRIFIED ABOUT THE NEXT STAGE OF MY LIFE.

There.

i'm in the worst fucking mood i've been in since graduation week and i don't even know why. life is confusing but there are lots of reasons for me to be happy. but i can't do it. what is wronggggg with me.

fuck having expectations

it's a lesson I'll never learn.

I'll be better if I can just take what I can get and sometimes be pleasantly surprised. But, no. I. ALWAYS. WANT. MORE.

Can I just say that all my recent weekends have been really weird? I'm not sure what to say about my feelings and sometimes I wonder if I even have them. (I have a few, but not the right ones.) Not really sure what is going on here. Should probably stop.

I wasn't supposed to do that....

put your name on the line, along with place and time.

no expectations

I need to stop hating myself or I will end up doing a lot of stupid things this weekend. And then I will hate myself more.

I took an oath but I'm giving it up
You didn't have to see things my way
Nothing more than a casual f***
Isn't that just how we operate?
Let's drink to feelings of temptation
You and I, we're an overnight sensation

I make you to come just to watch you leave
I walk around with your heart on my sleeve
Don't sweat it
It's over now
Our time ran out