these past few days i have been bed ridden sick, cant stomach a thing sick. it makes me feel uneasy knowin that i adore days like these. where im lightheaded, weak and breathless, bounded to my sweat drenched and wrinkled sheets. i never do feel like putting a thing in my mouth, happy that if i do, my body finds a way to eject it as soon as ( Read more... )

ive been listening to a certain song since the sun has risen at five in the morning. its three hours past noon now, and i hate the way it still reminds me of you. if we got any closer, this would be the perfect song to describe you. and i hate that. that we didnt get close enough.


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i dont want you to tell me you felt the same way. i dont want to know anyone that has ever felt the same way as i do. ever. i dont want you to tell me that it can be fixed. i dont want you to tell me its just a "chemical imbalance." or a "necessary heartbreak" that everyone goes through. i just want this to be special, something only i know, okay? ( Read more... )

I have to break my habit of sleeping straight from returning to school.
My days have been like this:
1.Go to school
2.Get home
3.Have a 4 hour "nap"
4.Wake up
5. Drink Coffee
6. Hyper and up till 3 am.
7. Sleep for 3 hours.
8. Go to school
and repeat.

I have been extremely tired lately.
Anyway, Its 9:00 pm right now meaning i have fasted for 24 hours.
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its six in the morning. i havent been asleep since yesterday. im real tired. im tired of everything. goodnight and ill explaain in the morning.