I have been fighting this for so long but now Fuck it I'm letting the darkness in I hate myself, I hate that i have no one to talk to.... I hate that my mom and I can't so 2 mins with out a fight lately so fuck it I fucking give up... and I think I quit hideing things so here we go the only things I'm hideing is I'm depressed and I smoke not around ( Read more... )

why is it everything i say or think lately I have to worry if I have said anything bad or thinking I shouldn't be thinking/ i hate it. I wish I could just do and say what I want with out haveing to think about things like this... well that all

ok so I just did the math and I have to lose 118lb so I can be where I want to be.. so I'm thinking only chicken and fish no beef, juice and water no pop, also I'm going to start working out at the center 2 times a week and walking everyday. so that should help. Well if anyone has anything to add just let me know.

ok so THANK YOU BEN with all your help I know you were not tryin to be mean and I know you care and is trying to help and you are.. what I have come up with is a diet thing, no more fried food (but on Wed)we have a fish fry ay my church so I well only have 2 pices of fish. next no more sugar and I'm going to start working out (swimming and walking ( Read more... )

so sitting in my room eating Swedish Fish, cause I'm mad at myself, why is this well its cause I look at myself and HATE what I see (what I see) I'm fat, I'm not pritty at all, the zits are poping up more and more, I feel like a bad mother cause I just don't know what to do right now cause we are in the NO stage, shes sick and thats not helping, ( Read more... )

Yes I know its only 7:20 but I'm going to bed, this cold that has need around got me... Also 2 all that have my Cell number I will not have it tomorrow, my Dad needs it. but I will have it back on thurs. hope you all are well love ya

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I CAN'T SLEEP:( I'm sad Alison work up and cryin at me how she misses her Ben and that we need 2 go see him soon so I know I said in 2 weeks but I don't think the little girl can wate that long.... so what I need is for you 2 call and let me know what you wanna do. Now on 2 the News part............ Nothing really going on we are getting ready for ( Read more... )

ok so most of you know by now that I have a little girl, well today her papa (my dad) tool her and the dog for a walk so I could take a shower with out a little under me. it was almost the best shower I have ever had. well next is 2 make lunch and I think some time today my sister is going to come out and go shopping with me for a dress cause ( Read more... )