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I can't write until the exams are over but I feel such a need to write that it's in my head, my dreams, my breath. I'm really trying not to let myself be drawn too deeply but writing is so wonderful, especially when you're feeling all pained and twisted inside. As awful as it sounds, HP is perfect for angst

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Ah yes. In HP fandom more than any other, I enjoy twisting my characters and turning them against each other. I guess it's the war setting, and how the lines are so clearly drawn. Death Eater = bad, Order of the Phoenix = good; it makes me want to toy with them, add desperation and need to the mix, then tear them away because it hurts; and war hurts, and you know that somebody has to die.
But I think the line that bests sums it up comes from a H/D fic, which I sadly can't remember the title of, but I remember the line:
"I wanted to destroy something beautiful"

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I'm quite afraid of it sometimes, what part inside of me loves the dark side of HP fandom so much? I think that's one of the reasons why I don't tell anyone about it, ever. I don't want to say I'm being pretentious because I'm not and it's just something inside of me I don't show to the world alot.

Yes, it's the war. I love writing about the war, post war, apocalypse...and it's disturbing but you put it nicely- desperation, hurt, death, confusion, loneliness, but most of all it's all the pandemonium.

The more tortured Harry is, the more I love him. And everyone knows the Trio are headed for disaster, it's like watching a train crash and taking the damn train anyway.

Pain and darkness, a frightening mix =x I'm glad you understand! But, I hardly can comprehend it sometimes, why I'm so drawn to it.