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[faithless32]

Why am i still alive? Maybe because I'm a big coward and need someone else to pull the trigger. My life will never change, it will always be this pit and everyone around me will feel hurt and confused by me. Last night I felt more like I wanted to die than i have in a long time. I suppose if I had the balls and hubby hadn't have hidden all the

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[cocorico]

This is all just stupid. Trying to get yourself killed is stupid, and I don't think you'd really want it. If I started strangling you I think you would want me to stop, right? You shouldn't be begging for some Kingwood freak to rape you. You need better than that.

I get the message you're not really planning on leaving Brian or why would you be thinking about ending it all? If you're really going to leave you should be happier. You need to leave and wake up to reality.

If you don't think your medicine is working you need to get onto something else. Look at how medicine has helped me. The suicidal feelings are gone. A lot of bad things are gone.

I just don't understand why you would put up with so much shit for 10 years. You're not killing yourself, you're punishing yourself in a worse way.

And maybe I'm not being clear: I'm never going to have sex with you. I like being your friend, but I don't want to lead you on. I only love you as a friend and that's all it will ever be.