Im starting to see the things I never expected to see from him. I never wanted to see them.
and still, Id do anything to have him tell me to come back to him.

There is no longer an issue about forgiving that person because there is nothing for me to forgive as that person may just be speaking the gospel truth in view of my well-documented flirtations with the tiny parts of me that die as I listen to him.
Im still waiting, Im still trying.

Anytime Ive felt this way, Ive always gotten what I wanted in the end. I deserve this, you deserve this.

thanks for never failing to fuck me over when all I try to do is be happy.
constant fucking set back when she has anything to do with my life.
keep your fucking threats, Im cutting all ties as of now.

Ive never felt so empty. I cant take back what I gave away.

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"I decided last night that I am a true martyr. I believe now fully, that my sole purpose is to suffer so that others don't have to. I don't even know what to say anymore. The more I think, and the more I write, the worse it seems to get. And I keep drawing a blank. I have this void that seems to overwhelm me, and suck out any life I might have left ( Read more... )

please
please
make this stop
make him stop
please

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