why the fuck do i even try anymore? THis life is SO POINTLESS!!!! I always set my self up to fail.. like anyone honestly cares what i write in here.. lets just say Fuck it.. seriously.. fuck it.. fuck life..

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck..

bye

softball game kicked some ass.. yeah buddy.. well hmm lets see 5 more days of school... in a lighter note... 2 more full days... and 3 days full of exams... i need to get a 100% on my math exam or i take algebra 2 over next year.. fun stuff...
summer means partying.. which means... no regrets this summer... campin out.. working... working... campin ( Read more... )

so yeah..more of my life.. comeing to the conclusion that jonathan and i broke up because of him.. wtf.. why couldnt he have just told me that he wanted to break up... be a god damn man.. yes this is where i get pissed.. and u know what.. im gonna bitch cause im flustered!! GROWL.. okay so he fuckin says he'll call me.. does he? fuck no.. he says ( Read more... )

So here it is. i will lay it out for u, my dad's side of the family are little bitches. yes im gonna say shyt here.. i cant post much on my xanga anymore because my grandmother and my aunt are like freaking out because quote on quote, " i am bashing my family"... WHAT THE FUCK! seriously.. okay so if u have no idea whats going on in my life i will ( Read more... )

Last race of the year this weekand.. hecks yes.. i coxed a varsity 4.. my ladies took 3rd.. which isnt that bad considering FHC cut me off.. GRoWL! but well im getting a cell phone on monday...heehee im excited! Last night i was supposed to go to Cassie's Party and a Tattoo party, this man that runs a tattoo shop brought all his equipment home and ( Read more... )

Im so.. i dunno rite now.. derek is so wonderful to me and well i'm starting to develope this huge crush on him.. but yestorday when we were talking about watching a disney movie my sister brought up watching finding nemo.. and that just made me wanna cry... jonathan and i watched that movie everytime we saw each other.. it was sad.. hmmmm

<3<3

Prom Kicked ass

.i got 2 albums started.. u should take a look.. random pictures and some of prom so far....

http://pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/goober321@sbcglobal.net/my_photos

Life is just hidden mysteries that know one chooses to solve. It had its endless journeys or pointless moments, but it is like the book no one wants to read. They shove it aside and pick the most interesting one. That is like what people do. They look to the more interesting and loose their focus on the great. The great doesnt actually mean great. ( Read more... )

u know what.. SCREW my depression on trying to get over jonathan.. because i think im actually getting over him. After this weekand im ready to move on... i mean yeah i cried when i saw him and when his team and his mom in that matter were all against me... but u know what.. who cares.. its all peer pressure that HE has to deal w/ and if u can't ( Read more... )

hmm time to update.. not that anyone loves to read this anyways...... spring break is okay.. it could be better but thats okay rite? hmm i leave for chicago tomorrow at 6:15 am.. AHHH SCARY.... hmm so yeah.. gonna stay there a bit.. fun.. then i'll be home late saturday night... um.. what else.. im really giddy and spaztic rite now.. hmm k im gonna ( Read more... )