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I spent 20 days with ben.
and it went far to fast.
and wasnt long enough.
I want need to spend all my time with him.
hes the only thing that matters to me.
without him i feel so lost.
im finding it hard to even talk to him on the phone 'cos its reminding me how much i miss him.
falling asleep on his chest is the most perfect thing.
I couldnt sleep at all last night, finaly dropped off at about 5:30am.
I kept thinking about everything we have done together, and how happy his face looks when he smiles.
god i love his smile.
bah im starting to well up.
i miss him so much.
i hate it.
i miss just having him in the same room as me.
i miss him letting me beat him up.
and then kissing me till i stop being in a strop after he fights back (and wins)
everything feels better when hes around.
He tells me im beautiful, when ive just woken up, or im looking a total mess.
he kisses me all over and tells me he loves between each one.
he makes me feel so safe.
so special.
im going to marry this boy...
Benjamin, I Love You Always.