It's been almost three days since Trevor left. 3 days. I'm not healing, in fact, just the opposite, I am getting more sad and more lonesome as the hours pass. I think about him often and reminiscence on all the laughs we shared together. Before now I never realized how excruciating love can be. And how the loss of a love, even for a relatively ( Read more... )

Trevor left for Afghanistan today. I've never felt so torn apart in my life. I miss him more than anything. Driving away from his barracks at 2 this morning, in the rain, was the lowest I've felt in the past five months. I've been crying all day. Even worse, my mom is too immersed in herself to even notice. But she's not the only one; no one else ( Read more... )

5 hours until 2007.
This is our year.
We're graduating, turning 18, going to college.
This time next year will be very different. Maybe we'll have grown apart, but maybe not. We'll have many new, different memories.

But there's fuckin' nothin' goin on around this town.
I wish I was still in Texas to get my midnight kiss from Trev.

And I wish I was a ( Read more... )

Ahhh Christmas. So much excitement and anticipation that almost always ends up in disappointment.
I got a cool trench coat, really rad rock & roll purse, a cool perfume but the rubber boots were the wrong color, the belt was the wrong color, the shirts were the wrong size, the brown pumps were too big, and the pajamas were lame. It's not really my ( Read more... )

It would suffice to say that Trevor is the best thing that has ever happened to me.

There are 300 million people in the United States and over 6 billion worldwide, yet I'm often left feeling completely alone ( Read more... )

My focus has started to shift a lot lately. No, not because of a torn contact or hazy eyes, but because my priorities are changing. I haven't been skydiving or hanging out at the DZ nearly as much lately as I did last year ( Read more... )

This Thanksgiving could not have possibly been more different than last years unless I had taken a trip to the moon and gotten eaten by a shark during the visit. 
Last year I hot-boxed a jeep for an hour and ate with my family shortly thereafter, then that weekend I hot-boxed a tent with a family friend and got way too trashed off of Hennessy. This ( Read more... )

My boyfriend brings me Sprite and crackers when I'm hung-over ( Read more... )

Today was very, very close to being terrible. Then I check the mailbox where a fat envelope addressed to me is waiting. 
"Congratulations! You have earned admission to the University of Arizona and our prestigious Honors College for Fall 2007 as a Pre-Business major in the Karl Eller College of Management."
That's the first line. I read further and ( Read more... )