I Never Thought I'd Ever Life For Someone Else's Sake

[falenfromgrace]

=__= *sigh*I just need to ramble right now. My brain is being my brain and making me second guess everything with my love life, you'd really think I'd be able to look past everything people have said to me, but I just can't. I still look at myself in the mirror and the first thing that crosses my mind is the words worthless and useless. I finally

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[rainbowxrae]

*is depressed* lol JK XD
im obsess with yoochun and minho ... hrmmm lol
*isnt gonna make any sence/ has no love experience*
if he truly lovves you then why would he hurt you?
i feel in love with his dude ... and i never told him i did ... only like my CLOSETEST CLOSEST freinds knew ... and that was like 3 of them ... i finaly knew that i loved him ... and that .... a few weeks later after relizing he gets a girlfreind ... i was crushed ... it was my fault for not telling him O_o ...
not that it would have made it better ... but i dont know how to tell him now because his gf is a really good freind of mine .. and now i dont even talk to him casue i love him and i dnt know how to handle it ...

im just saying that like ... just tell him now before he thinks you dont like him and ... moves on ......
*failed advice*

[rainbowxrae]

i have no idea wut ijust said ...
theres gonna be bumps in the raod but you'll get over it...
dont be a scareed man ...
*rambles*

[falenfromgrace]

He knows, he's my boyfriend and has been for months. He knows my fears, and is constantly assuring me that it won't happen. That he loves me too much to leave me. But it still scares me...*pats*Don't worry any talking helps at least a little

[rainbowxrae]

ohhhh .dude since when did you have a boyfreind O_O
*FAILS IN LIFE*
:[

[sazame]

I wouldn't know much since I've never been in a relationship before but I think you should talk to him, ask him the exact same thing you are writing on this entry, that's the only way to know. I know it might be risky if he gives a negative response to that, but I think you have the rights to be afraid of losing him or whatnot. As cheesy as this sounds, he should be able accept you the way you are if he really loves you and you deserved to be loved (regardingfromwhatIfindoutfromyourlastentrythatis).

And girl, you ar not worthless, me and Rach invading your LJ here and a lot more friends in O! and Twitter can be your proof of worth. You've got us, so at least even though we might not be able to offer you the best help, let us hear you out when you need to say something. *pats*

[falenfromgrace]

*patted*He knows everything about this. and he always assures me that that my fears aren't going to happen that he won't leave me, that I'm worthy of everything adnt hat he loves me no matter what its just pointless fears from other people.

I do my best to believe that