i hate myself almost always

i have a lot on my mind.

tonight my thoughts go out to the woman ( Read more... )

i do everything mechanically ( Read more... )

they're all over me ( Read more... )

at the end of all of this ( Read more... )

there's not a warrior amongst them. that's why i spend so much time in the gym. i like being around people who are going for some pain. when i work out i don't have to listen to the bullshit and i don't have to deal with weak people. i can get off on myself and work out hard and not have to apologize for the way i am. i fucking hate having to ( Read more... )

i saw you last night, i didn't know who you were. you didn't mind not telling me. just kept up the conversation and i followed not knowing exactly what to say. you spent your time with a girl i used to know, laying on shoulders and playing with hands. you knew what i saw and didn't feel. i walked away and built cement walls tall enough for you to ( Read more... )

arteris and ventricles are a metaphor for some kind of pressures. the spelling is important.

it's my step-dad's birthday and his grandpa died this morning. my parents are going out of town until wednesday night and leaving me home alone. nicole will be here saturday though, i'm having people over tomorrow after homecoming and all kinds of stuff. tornado warnings and things i want something.