For once I'm starting to feel like I know what I'm doing in school. I'm starting to feel a little more confident. Let's see how the first day of clinical goes next week though. I can do this. I want to do this ( Read more... )

did you really think this would help you? You just got yourself in soo much more shit than you were already in. Dont you DARE talk shit about my family. Dont you dare. My brother may not be able to hit you because you are a girl, but once i get my fucking hands on you i will tear you apart and make you wish that you had never concocted your stupid ( Read more... )

old entries that never quite made it in here from this summer....

so tonight we invented a new game. Its called laundy bin launching. At work when you work on the beach you get to use a golfcart to drive around the resort which is excellent. so we did a bonfire for our last teen night and that was fun. Matt stayed and helped me build the fire, which ( Read more... )

 I want to meet a guy who isnt an asshole, I want the one who will call me back when he says he is going to, hold open doors for me like even the car door, not make up stories to his friends about the things we have done together, not spread rumors around our work about whats gone on. I want to meet a guy who's going to fight for me...the kinda guy ( Read more... )

She said "Nobody here can live forever quiet in the grasp of dusk and summer"....

I love my friends and this couldnt have been a better last night down here. It was perfect, absolutely perfect in every way imaginable.

Tonight I'm feeling infinite.

Teach me how to fix it. Teach me how to help.

I hate seeing him in pain. It bothers me because I know exactly what hes going through. I know how badly the flashbacks hurt, I know the agnony of sleepless nights. All I want to do is help but I do not know how. I have never been able to help myself with this, so how am I supposed to help another? But ( Read more... )

I wish I knew what the hell was going on and what the hell I wanted. Why is it so hard??

Yesterday I gave my two best friends the okay to date each other. They did not need to ask me. They did not need to talk to me about it. But separately, both of them wanted to. Both of them wanted me to be okay with it, and if I wasn't they weren't going to tell each other how they felt. I would not live with myself if I said no, knowing that they ( Read more... )

bah. just bah. its the start of tourist season down here and i hate it. and my family is all down here and did i mention i hate that too? and sean is on his way home as we speak and bah. idk. lately ive just been feeling very trapped. and alone. why does it always come down to this?

I want to be somebody's someone. I wanna be the one they run to ( Read more... )