And he's getting his rocks off by living it up..being a MUSICIAN, man! He controls the paychecks, he has the bankroll, he has no financial worries! He is a rotten son of a bitch and I am sick and tired of all of his bull shit!!!

*sighs*

and I'm scared.

well he did show up and we worked on bills. He was very concerned about my comfort, after the surgery and would not let me pick up anything too heavy. He remarked that it was an awful big surgery and he was disappointed that I was to return to work tomorrow ( Read more... )

It never fails, I come second to music. Regardless of whether he lives here or not ( Read more... )

At least physical pain has a pill, an antidote if you will. I was awake most of the night, the pain not stopping but not preventing me from falling back to sleep for at least a little while. I didn't take a pain pill...this pain was almost a welcome relief from the emotional pain of a couple days ago. At least I know this pain will stop, this pain ( Read more... )

He picked me up at 4, we talked about the most mundane things, but at least we talked and it was not as uncomfortable as I feared ( Read more... )

It's amazing what the concern of friends can do for you ( Read more... )

He did call, and the answer was "yes"...he'll take me where I need to go. I told him that I appreciate it. We talked about the time, and when he should pick me up ( Read more... )

it just never seems to move, unless it is blocking my airways, then it moves to my chest..sometimes to my throat ( Read more... )

It's been a week and one day, and the pain has only gotten worse. It has to be said that I thought I wanted this separation, truly thought I wanted a divorce, really felt that what we had was, over...ended, kaput...done ( Read more... )