last post november ( Read more... )

why are so many dying so young?

i dont feel as guilty sitting on my butt today,
since the weather is dreadfully nasty.

we put mark's marker on his grave today.

it's been a while.
im offically married.
my life begins....
i might post pictures.....if i ever get on here...

john and i just got back from jamaica.
it was better the second time around!
pictures to come!!

today was pretty rough.
i miss mark.
and work has changed.
just a pretty depressing day.

i feel like somewhere in the middle ive lost myself.

it's been 3 months to the day that my brother left this earth.
and this has been the worst 3 months of my life.
everything that i was thought was so perfect or close to perfect.
is nothing of a sort. or even relatively close.
in-fact it feels almost as a lie.

so girls day today.
i found my wedding dress...
i have never felt so amazing in my entire life.
i can't wait to walk down the isle and see john's face.